TwistedAngel

Pieces of my life
2003-04-22 18:41:06 (UTC)

*CAUTION...... major ramblings from yours truly*

As i warned these are some stupid ramblings so if you don't
understand, oh well i warned you.......

Sometimes i wonder if anyone else knows how i feel. Oh, i'm
sure that some people do. I feel handicapped because
sometimes i can't find the right words to express my
feelings. Yesterday i read some things i wrote down in this
little journal thing and it was cool to look back at my
thoughts. Even in that journal i couldn't use the words i
needed.

Sometimes i wonder if anyone else thinks about these same
things. I know they do but no one seems to show it.

Sometimes i wonder if you were me would you think the same
thing. Would you wonder about everyone else? Sometimes i
don't think that people could stand to be me, but then i
think could i stand to be someone else?

Sometimes i pray that i will wake up, and stop dreaming
this seemingly endless dream, but then i realize that what
i'm living in isn't fantasy it reality. This is my reality
i say in my head and then my dreams of a perfect world
shatter like glass. Then i know that i'm awake, i don't
need to be pinched, i just need to remember that this is my
reality.

Sometimes i wonder what a real good person is... i mean who
can truly be 100% good? It's impossible maybe good means
trying. But then i can try but not try hard enough, am i
still good? MAybe godd is doing what you think is best. BUT
does that mean best at the moment, best for the long run,
or best for everyone else? Too many questions and no
answers.

Sometimes i pray that i can stop thinking, or just slow it
down. Sometimes my thought are too much and my mind can't
take it. I crave for the answers to my questions, but who
can answer them? No one, because everyone answer will be
different... so does that mean i should set my own point of
views, or just follow someone else?
~jenn~




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