steph

displaying my utter contempt for myself
2003-04-22 19:40:24 (UTC)

I like him. I m not sure if he..

I like him. I'm not sure if he likes me. He's so beautiful-
all of his flaws are beautiful- everything about him is
beautiful. Actually i don't think he likes me. He's way too
amazing to ever want me. He's exactly what i want- and he
doesnt have a clue that i want him. I wish there were a way
for me to find out if he wanted me back before i told him.
maybe i wont tell him because every girl he has liked
before, he has made very clear that he liked her. Maybe I
could try to get him to like me... although my attraction
to him was so natural i dont think i could bring myself to
force something on him. I've liked him since i first saw
him 8 months ago. i remember just trying to catch his eye
to see if maybe i could do something about the way i felt...
i never did. and then one day in february we were in the
same class together and ever since weve been talking- minimally.
He's just soo amazing... he's the best looking person i
know and his personality and depth are just .... It's
amazing ive never felt more connected with someone- like he
is a male me or something .. except, i don't know if he
feels the same way about me. I wish it were easier for me
to be myself around him then maybe i wouldnt be so nervous
and act soooo stupid! ohwell... maybe someday ill find
someone.




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