Nephanie6

04/12/03

Yah today went to two easter egg hunts for Robert, read a
little, and just chilled with nikki and katie...I've
actually been alright until i am alone or my minds not
occupied on something else..I'm thinking too much about
him...And that bothers me b/c obviously he doesn't need
me...but...i feel like i need him...but...I really did feel
there was no room for me..like i didn't have a spot in his
life...maybe he just didn't want me in his life...but thats
where i wanted to be...i didn't want 24/7 service but hell
i wanted like 30 minutes an hour...idk...time...and then
people are getting on saying i hate him and that its over
and..all this and that...but i do hate him in a sence...for
doing this to me...i suppose i brought it upon myself but
he influenced it greatly...but...idk...no...i need a new
topic...he doesn't need me and he probably doesn't give a
damn if i'm with him or not...i wish i knew...but idk i
guess i never will since he doesn't have the decenty to
talk to me...yah...and i'm wearing my green hoodie...i
think...i need to umm get rid of this and my necklaces..and
my lighters..if this is the way its gonna leave straight
out from underneath then we'll see who's sorry now...if
that's how it's gonna stand when you know you've been
depending on the one your leaving out..but umm yah...i am
going to try to keep my mind off him...i loves you olive
hehehe...i am going to go read...Peace, Love, &
Peaches;)..Goodnight everybody...Happy Early Easter...
~nephanie