confusedandupset831

Housing of Rachel's Feelings
2003-04-18 06:14:53 (UTC)

SPRING BREAK

hello again dear dear diary...how are things?? in my life i
think things are going pretty well even if there is always
room for improvment...things between jake and i are
well....sarah and i are great...katie and i are getting
close again...brooke and i are great....hmmmm....megan and
i are good....leah and i are starting to talk again....the
only thing is dan and i are kinda bumpin heads latley....i
guess i have been pretty mean and i love the kids lots i
just dont know what im doing right now....i guess im
confused...but other than that things are good....my mom
made a friend and that is really cute...it made me
smile...sarah is up north for the weekend and its gonna
suck lol i miss her already....i get to hang with brooke
tomorrow for her b-day and hopefully with dan before that
if he doesnt hate me...then saturday im gonna hang with
katie then spend the night at my grandmas and then after
that i go where ever the wind takes me...i like going
outside latley...i think i am going to get up early
tomorrow and go rollerblading and clear my mind of things
so i can have a nice cool day ahead...a nice cool happy day
so i wont blow up on ppl like i did to dan....which was
retarded of me...wow i only write in this diary when there
is a problem with the way i do things so this actually
portrays me as a pretty mean jerk...but im not...i think
personally im pretty nice to everyone....i am tryin to get
rid of the apologizing thing but like i dont know i guess i
feel like i have to use it cuz im so used to ppl getting
offeneded by what i say or getting mad even if they may be
jokin around...sometimes i dont know if they mean it or not
and i freak and they are like "hey dude i was just kidding"
so i dont know...well im really tired...i will have a lot
of time on my hands to write since i am going no where over
break and i have no homework....so yeah night....love ya,
Rachel




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