KerouacFemme

Bitch In Seattle
2003-04-16 18:24:29 (UTC)

Lao

Lao is the name of the boy I';m about to go on a date
with; this'll be our second outing. The first was last
Saturday (today is wednesday) when, after a long day of
work and tolerating two other people's penetrating despair
and victimized mindset, and my own most horrrible migraine
to date, I got a call from Lao at about 11:15, asking to
go out. Saying Z" I dont want to force you to go out, but
I'd love to see you right now" I just kept hearing myself
saying "no, I can't, I'm too tired".. then just, ":okay..
but have me home by 1" (1am)

We just drove around saying ridiculous things about the
landscape outside... Our plan was to go to a park; but at
midnight?? Everything was pitch black and scary.. you can
['t walk through the woods at 12....
Then he pulled up in fromnt of a grocery store.. "do you
have to pick something up?" I asked..
"I thought we'd pick up a bottle of red wine," he said.
We ran about the aisles, me pointing out all the great
vineyards that were my favorites in the differnt
california varietals... I wasn';t trying to ound like a
snob, but he was a bit impressed with my knowledge of the
wines... He just loves red wine.. So we picked pu a bottle
of the 2000 Hyatt Cabernet-Merlot... I'd had it a few
times before, .. good strong cab character, with the
subtle mushiness/jammyness of the merlot... Good
structurewhen with that fruitiness... But he had never had
a Zin!! Zinfindel are the classic.. The best example of
how american wines can stand up to the french ones...
Thoughj most wine critics say thast the Cab grape is the
best for american character to rival the french..I dont
know... Zin is becoming more and more popular.
anyway
good date
we drank a little (maybe the equivalent of a glass) and
ont he way shared oiur poetry with eachother.. he writrees
hiphop lyrics..
a white guy (I think) with a chinese name, that wwrites
hiphop lyrics.. I love seattle
anyway
and then we were rappiung off of eachother on the way
home,,m creating some mad rhymes..
I dont want to, but I think I may like this guy.
But my sex drive might overwhelm any ratioinal thought...
hard to tell
anyway

So wre decided to have a lovely outing today... "what do
you wanna do?" I asked him... "Let's be spontaneous" he
says... I like him already./
very attractive, too
though he's alittle musculy, and i normally dont dig on
that
I miss my ex (still hurts to say it) ryan.. he is still
the most attarctive man in existence to me.. Christ... I
still fucking masturbate to him... anyway
and the older man (Scott).. that's a whole differednt
situation in its entirity...

But my sex drive has waned a bit with the increase in
stress lkevels... shcool is a bit more, well,
encompassing?... Needing more attention than I Initially
planned.. and the new job.. little stressful.

All is well, its just harder to get a little time to write
these entries..
but it is cleansing.. and good for my psyche, Im'm sure..
but I have a date in half an hour.. I dont know what we're
going to do.. lunch, then be crazy.. maybe go to the zoo...
you be good now
sorry to bore.
xoxo
-KerouacFemme




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