I'm not dumb...

Mofo in the Wae
2003-04-16 04:13:27 (UTC)

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Hmm...well, here i am yet again and if u had trouble
reading sum of my past entries im sry but this website like
fucks up the whole format and skips lines n shit...w/e, all
the words r still there so u can figure it out :-P...well,
i talked to tom again todae! and it wuz like the talks we
used to have wae back when...like, it kept going n there
wuznt much silence, and he actuallee spoke instead of
alwaes saeing "i gotcha" and if i mentioned summit more
sirius or important he would actuallee talk about it and i
dint feel funnee talking to him and it wuz gr8 :) so, for
now were both frends (tho ill alwaes like him more than
that whether he duz or not) and were just gonna c wut
happens on the cruise...matbe well click, matbe we
wont...tho we prollee wont cuz idk, im just unluckee...i
could nvr b luckee enough to have a gr8 guy like him :( sum
things just rnt meant to b i guess, tho i shurlee wish they
were! i reallee wanna c him b4 the cruise, i would do
NE~thing for that, but i kno its not gonna happen so i dont
kno y i even bother thinking about it...he says that 2 hrs
is alot to travel for just one date...and the sad thing is,
hes rite :( i kno hes rite but i refuse to admitt it b/c im
a wacko and i want to c him. i want to c him so bad and no1
will ever understand. not even my own frends, not even him.
well, if hes not willing to travel 2 hrs then w/e, its kewl
w/ me, matbe we could all hang at laurens again, but its
not fair to put her in the middle of this. I'm surprised
she hasnt alreadee gone insane. Imagine one of ur closest
frends coming to u to complain about their love problems
with your cousin! and to talk abut h/u w/ them n stuff!
thats sum carzy shit n idk how she fuckin deals w/ it...if
sum1 came to me n said they loved rywun or joseph id flip,
but hey, if both of em liked each other id sae go for it,
but this is different cuz tom duznt like me back so its all
ehhh. so here i am now listening to crappee love songs at
12 o'clock when ive still got about 2 hrs of hw left...its
not fair...just cuz i wuz abscent on fridae and mondae i
have all this work left, but after 2morrow is break so im
not gonna let it get to me...i got my report card todae :-
my mom wuznt veree happee but w/ wut ive been going through
she seems to sort of understand but she wants me to get my
grades up this quarter...i think i can manage...
hopefullee...matbe i should go start the last of my hw
now... er matbe not cuz its alreadee late so im gonna b
tired 2morrow no mattet wut so it duznt reallee matter.
2morrow in english were working on our research projects,
then i have gym, and then bio, we have a sub...ooo! matbe
it will b sexee squirrel sub! hes so hott! then i have
lunch but im gonna miss like half of it cuz i hafta take an
eng vocab quiz *gags* then spanish, im taking a
test...fuck! i dint do my span hw either! and then i have
math and im missing like a bazillion hws in that class from
when i wuz sick so ms. baiers gonna b her usual evil whore
self about it. then i have ss and i actuallee did my hw for
that class, yaya! ss isnt that bad when mr. clark teachers
but miss pillar can b such a bitch to him. then i have
chorus and me n bree r usuallee psycos in that class but
were gonna try to not b psycos cuz we wanna make concert
choir and we cant if we keep talkin cuz sardo odviouslee
duznt like it. then after chorus i gtg take a math
test...that so sucks cuz 2morrow is the last dae of
skewl...i dont wanna stae after! and i dunt even kno wut
the test is on cuz its from 2 weeks ago and besides, im
gonna b thinking about vaca the whole time...tho, its not
much to b thinking about cuz i wont b doing much. no1 wants
to hang out w/ me, tom cant hang out w/ me and prollee
duznt want to, joseph isnt allowed and aggg, idk! i wanna
hang w/ sam!...i havent seen her in awhile which sucks cuz
shes like the onlee person i can tell evrything so i hope i
see her soon so we can talk n stuff...if tom duz get his
ass out here then matbe me, him, sam, n keith can all go
see a movie...ah! see! there i go again! thinkin about the
impossible! >:o

well, i gtg do sum hw, agggg, later.




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