Ehren

Wish I was here
2003-04-15 03:53:40 (UTC)

sad day....good grief

so..today i found out that terry died...i don't knwo how
much more i can take...literally..i can't cry anymore..NO
MORE PAIN...that song..no more drama....is like my life
righ tnow....my boyfriend is being a jerk.....i just don't
get him...its like one second we're perfect together..then
the next he hates me..i just don't know waht to think..i'm
blaming it on his nicatine cravings..cuz he's trying to
quit smoking..but i dont know....i came home and made a
fort and crawled up inside of it..and listened to celine
dion...and cried forever it seemed like..i hate my
life..everything is goiong SO wrong....us moving..to
everyone dying...to my faggot ass boyfriend..i dont'
know...gggrrr....i just need to do my thing..and keep on a
chuggin..but i don't know if i can anymore....i was
sitting in the bathtub...thinking...just one slit and it
would be over....my body kept saying"do it do it"..but my
heart kept tearing evertime i thought that..so i
didn't..obviously...i don't know..it seems like the best
way out.




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