I'm a girl, not a band!!!
2003-04-11 03:46:33 (UTC)


I don't know why I chose that as a title, but oh well.
Here's the latest:

Adam (Brandyn's dad) showed up at my house this afternoon
(and thank God I was home) in such a bind. It's too
confusing for me to go into it because you don't know Adam
nor Melissa, so his being in a bind will just have to do.
He's so lost and sad and without support and he was in
tears. I told him that my mom and I would do anything
necessary for Brandyn. So I think we're gonna be seeing
alot more of that kid in the near future. Brandyn is
having a hard time of this too and I feel awful. He talks
to me but in bits and pieces and I have a hard time
knowing what to say. How do you explain to a five year old
who's been kidnapped twice by his biological mother and
taken away for 8 months at a time that the person he's
come to see as "mommy" in the past 3 years has left him
and doesn't want anything to do with him? I want to cry
just thinking about that.

So, it's been rough here in the past couple of days.
There's one of the sweetest little boys asleep in my bed
wearing the same clothes that he wore yesterday (he
wouldn't let me give him something else to wear).

I feel awful. I wish....I don't know what I wish. I just
want Brandyn to be happy. He doesn't deserve any of this.