jesterKing1

Day dreaming in Darkness...
2003-04-09 16:15:21 (UTC)

shitty...

Well today i didnt want to get outta bed... I feel realy
depressed and to make things worse the weather is shitty...
I feel all alone and like i wanna cry and do nothing...
I think alot has to do with Jayna, but i dunno. Whenever we
talk its usualy for a long time. Like the longest i think
was 3 1/2 hours. She said that she never realy talkes that
long on the phone, the last time she talked to a guy on the
phone that long was before her and her boyfriend were going
out. I dunno, she keeps saying Im bad for business. Which i
now know what that means, it means she likes me and that
she doesnt know what to do. She told me she never lies to
her B/F, but whenever I call and he's around she lies about
who it is. She says thats the only thing she hates about
talking to me, that she has to lie. I guess thats a good
thing for me... But i dunno. She found that letter and is
going to give it to me when i see her again. Hehehe, I told
her I love to talk to her and that she makes me happy. At
that point she says: "Ohhhhhh Myyyyyyy Goooooood! See thats
why your bad for business!!!" lol, I dunno what is going on
with this girl. I hope things work out for me...
Been talking to Danielle alot lately... Dont know if thats
a good thing or a bad thing... It just makes me miss her
alot...
Jenna declaired her love for me... Which actualy kinda
freaks me out because I havent realy known her for that
long... She knows i dont have any feelings like that at all
for her, but yet she keeps on trying to make me feel bad
about it. Saying little things to make me feel bad... I
guess i deserve it though...
Me and my parents have been arguing alot lately... Bout
stupid shit. I just cant stand them anymore... I keep
telling myself "only 5 more months..." but w-e.
I have no motivation to go to school anymore... I just
wanna sleep in and not do anything... I just feel like
crying sometimes, because I feel that no one realy cares...
I know people say they do, but... Its still how I feel.
I dunno give it a week and things will be better watch. I
wont stress shit, and the weather will be much nicer out.

Well I have some accounting shit i have to do b4 class.. I
hate this class. the teacher is such a bitch. I yelled at
her last class. Like realy loud, because she was being
nasty to me.
Im supposed to hang out with Jayna tonight, and told her I
was gonna call her during her break, but she never picked
up... I think that is getting to me too. but whatever, Im
sure there was a reasion. I hope she calles me and tells me
that were still on! well Nuff of this crap. Got shit to
do...




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