someone_maybe

of little importance
Ad 2:
2003-04-09 04:09:19 (UTC)

jumbled so disregard

"where are you now? because that's where i want to be."

what's wrong with me?

jealous.

iwishicouldstopthisinsanityimtiredofbeingthiswayimtiredofbei
ngsostressedoutanditsnotyoubutbecauseofthesituationimjustido
ntknowimnotokayiambutimnotandagaineverythingisgoingthroughmy
headicantgetitoutfastenoughandthefactthatimnotusingpunctuati
onorspacesdoesntmakethisanyeasierbutidontwantanyonetoreadthi
sandineedtogetitoutbutidontwanttoimtiredimtiredimtiredandmyr
oommateisyellingatmeicanttakethisstressineedtogoawaytogetawa
yithinkiwillstopcallingyoutakethehintthatidontlikeyouobvious
lyifidontsoundlikeidontwanttotalktoyouidontwanttotalktoyoubu
tyouyouiwanttocallmeandyoudontidontknowwhyiwishyouwouldthoug
hyouonlyemailmeandiwouldlikemorebutmaybeimjustgoingtoofastan
dmaybeimusingyouasareboundbutidontwanttoandididntthinkiwasun
tiltodaywhenireadhisentryandigotjealousagainitsjustthatyouus
edtotellmethosethingsandithurtstohaveyousaythesamethingstoso
meoneelsecantyoucomeupwithsomethingnewcantyoufindsomeotherwo
rdsiknowialwaystoldyouthatyouweregoodwithwordsandyouareobvio
uslythatswhyyouusethesameonesbecausetheyretrueiknowthatbutst
illohnevermindicantexplainitandyoudontwanttohearitsoimdoneim
doneimdoneineedtobeheldineedtosleepnexttosomeonenotwiththemb
uthavethemtherewhenigotosleepandwheniwakeupandiwanttobesafei
thinkitcouldbeyoubutimafraidbecausebecausebecausebecauselast
timeitdidntmatterthatwedideverythingjustdisappearedandidontk
nowwhyandhedoesntknowwhyandimscaredtodeathofthathappeningaga
inimnotmadatyoudontstartthikingthatandifyoucanorarereadingth
isthenignorewhatimwritingbecauseitsnotimportantandimnotmadea
tyouitdoesntmatteriamjusttirediamlonelyimscaredimafraidand
i just want to be okay

-s_m


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