megan

listen to my silences
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2003-04-09 03:56:07 (UTC)

tired

of being stressed.

i'm listening to jars of clay right now. it relaxes me,
which is what i need right now. lots of thoughts from this
cd...

can't see the sun for the daylight, can't feel your breath
for the wind...

i want to get inside the you that you are hiding from...

if you put your arms around me, would it change the way i
feel...

in time will i be what you're thinking of...

she wants to save you with her bandages, after she makes
you bleed...

i'm supposed to be doing my homework right now. i'm
just...worn out. i need to relax, i just...can't. i'm not
sure why. it's me, i'm stressed, not a surprise though,
right? i need to be held, to sleep next to someone (not
have sex with them!) and just be.

what i really need right now is a back massage. cause i
have a feeling that i'm going to pull another one-nighter
in getting my homework done.

my day was productive though. i slept in, which was good
since i'm exhausted. then i ate lunch with sara, which was
good since i hadn't eaten since lunch the day before. i'm
not starving myself, i just can't afford to eat anywhere
but at school because my food is already paid for. after
that i went to the bank to open a checking account. which
was good since there's no such thing as a pnc bank down
here. i put all but thirty five dollars of my check into
the account, and they put ten in because i opened an
account and i'm a student. then i went to get my side
mirror put on from when i got sideswiped by the tour bus
which was good sinse i haven't had that mirror since
december. then i went to the place that fixed my wipers
because the passenger one wasn't completely working. they
had to replace the whole blade instead of just the rubber
part because it was bent, and they didn't charge me
anything. which was good since i can't really afford to
pay for it. i mean, i could have paid for it, but i'd've
(think about it, who says i'd have or i would have? no one)
really been hurting moneywise.

the rest of my day wasn't really productive. i went to wal-
mart to get mousse, and i found out they didn't have the
brand i use. so i have to go to target sometime. and what
did i end up buying at wal-mart? peanut butter cups.
exactly what i need to eat i know.

i did get my math homework

done though. took an hour and a half, which is a really
long time for me. this was a really hard section. or
maybe i'm just too stressed out.

*tears*

not sure why...

*tears*

i need to go.

final thought: this song by jars of clay called i need you

strangely out of place
there is a light filling this room where
none
would
follow before
i can't deny
it burns me up inside
i fan the flames
to melt away my pride
do i want shelter from the rain
or the rain to wash me away

i need you i need you i need you
i need you i need you i need you
you're all i'm living for

i might sound like a fool
but i think i felt you move
ing
closer
to me
face to the ground
to hide the fatal cut
i fight the weight
i feel you lift me up
you are the shelter from the rain
and the rain to wash me away

i need you i need you i need you
i need you i need you i need you
you're all i'm living for
i need you i need you i need you
you're all i'm living for
all i'm living for
you're all i'm living for

face to the ground
to hide the fatal cut
i fight the weight
i feel you lift me up
i can't deny
it burns me up inside
i fan the flames
to melt away my pride
i only had a
second to spare but
all the time in the world
to know you're there
you are the shelter from the rain
and the rain to wash me away

i need you i need you i need you
you're all i'm living for
i need you i need you i need you
you're all i'm living for
i need you i need you i need you
you're all i'm living for
all i'm living for
all i'm living for
all i'm living for
you're all i'm living for
all i'm living for
you're all i'm living for

one more final thought(also from jars of clay): i got a
question...where are you?


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