Tyler Durden

Blessed Life:
2003-04-07 01:32:22 (UTC)

Heaven is a half-pipe

this weekend was good. the sun went away.
actually...no...the warmth went away. there was plenty sun.
and my friends were there too.I actually achieved one of my
all time best hook-ups. Sarah Brandt. oooooh dear. can I
tell you how wonderful it was? of course, she was drunk and
stoned...and so was I...but it did happen and God damn-it,
we both liked it! No regrets. all is good in my life. this
party on friday can be a disaster or a blessing. I'm not
sure it's leaving either way at the moment. i'm glad susan
is happy. i'm glad that Court makes her happy. It's good
that all my friends have relationships. I'm perfectly fine
with all of that. I just wish i knew that someone cared.
Not even that. I know people care about me. I wish someone
pined for me. And I knew about it.

Heaven is a half-pipe. you can be alone there. My music and I make
shapes in the sky. I hurl my body into the air to feel beauty. There
can always be that moment where the song climaxes just as you reach
the top of your jump and all in the world is good. I live for that.
that is heaven.




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