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2003-04-06 22:56:39 (UTC)

selbe geschichte - andere sprache


„your English is very good“

my dictionary was expensive. and i did english in school
for a few years, ages ago.

„ P. although i feel duty bound to correct your last
sentence, it should read "i hope i haven't annoyed you"

thanks.

„and when two cards of the same value come up next to each
other you have a "snap" i hope this explanation makes some
sense to you...“

yes, it does.
once i looked for a girl at my side, not for the reason to
live with her, but for the final exit. i‘m a romantic
person. thats why i preferred the fall into the calm and
peacefull darkness of deep waters. imagine that peace, she
and i , standing at the top of the cliffs, holding hands
and then ... one step to freedom. now i hate her sometimes
because she keeps me alive. too stupid to live, too stupid
to die. there is no masterplan why we were born. to be born
is an accident. unwanted by those who are like me. i do not
know what that coldness inside me really is, the
bitterness. every morning the sunlight hurts my eyes and
remembers me that there is another day to survive. (i think
i’m just pathetic, in german it sounds less dramatic,
*rlof*) we, my girlfriend and i adopted a cat from an
animalshelter to have something to care for. a cat. my
therapist often says, i have to be patient. the books say
that everything will be ok and they say =We believe in hard
work and we believe in WONDERS= . i’m so fucking tired of
that shit. (but still love the sandwiches.) i would make my
life a gift to someone who is suffering from cancer or
AIDS ... then this flesh would be usefull.

jetzt erzähle ich wieder diesselben geschichten, nur in
einer anderen sprache. ärgerlich.




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