punk_babe_182

Care
2003-04-06 21:49:18 (UTC)

Self Mutilation, Self Harm, Self Injury

Cat Scratch

It hurts so much inside my head,
Some times I think it's worse than being dead.
Doubts and fears scream inside,
Playing with emotions I usually hide.
I feel the tension begin to load,
A pain so hot, I fear I'll explode.
My C.Ds playing, screaming out lyrics of their fears,
There a relief to being alone, no need to hide tears.
Guilt is echoing in my mind, making me feel worse than bad,
A silent wish is spoken, why can't I have a reason for
feeling depressed and sad.
The word selfish rings in my ears, the lack of explanation
for my mood,
The obvious fact that I have no excuse for being hurtful
and rude.
It's all the little things in life that begin to be build
up,
The confliction of emotions that threaten to seize me and
erupt.
I don't feel the pain,
Even as I cut dangerously close to my vein.
Everything freezes and sort of goes numb,
I watch unblinkingly as the blood runs down my thumb.
A satisfied smile creeps over my face,
A mad like ecstasy is unleashed to give chase.
This is my nirvana and I know it's insane,
But it's a safe hold inside that shields me from all the
pain.
Later when im asked 'what's that,'
I'll reply with a brave smile, it's just a scratch from
the cat.


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