ErykahKayne

My Daily Bread
2003-04-06 20:09:16 (UTC)

ok, it's official

i'm officially tired of sitting in the house. i only been
here a week and some change but i feel like a mad man. it's
time for me to get out. i mean, don't get me wrong. i love
being with my daughter and whatnot..but damn, this being in
the house every weekend and not seein daylight or the moon
for that matter has got to come to a stop. it's time for me
to go ahead and tell Lisa that she gon have to baby sit
from time to time. this has been on my mind since last
night. ok, next thing, i wonder what james is doing. he
hasn't called me today, or last night..whateva, i'm not
stressing. he's probably working on his car for the show.
more power to him. i hope it comes out like he wants it to.
My baby love him some cars. he be fixin them and puttin
shit all over dem..shits that i don't even know the names
to. But he's good though..i'm so proud of him. i swear
everyday he amazes me. he's smart, and caring, and
funny..and sexy. damn, let me hush..my diary got sumin
about him in it every damn day. New subby..but i can't help
it..i just love me some him! i'm still thinking about
that ? from last night. i mean, do i need to be by myself?
i've done it before..but since james..i want my cake and
eat it too. like, i don't want us to break up..but i dont'
know if i want to see other people either. i mean, there's
nobody specific that i would like to be with right about
now, but i don't want to have to sneak if there was. and i
know if i tell him we could see other people he'll flip
out. i'ma think on it some more. anyway, oh yeah...i talked
to T yesterday. a little bit. he seems to be having some
issues. but i don't know what kind cuzz he didn't talk
about them too much. But he did say that i was right about
alot of tings i had told him when we did talk. But i
already knew that. not to toot my own horn *toot, toot*
but, hey, the truth is the truth. i'm just glad he knows.
maybe he'll find a girl as good as me one day LOL. nah,
but really though..i probably would've/could've been the
best thing that ever happened to him. some people just
don't appreciate u until ur gone. James feels that way
about me sometimes. that i don't appreciate him, and i
admit i do take him for granted sometimes, because i expect
him to always be there. i mean, he's been a fixture in my
life for so long..it's like a security there that i don't
want to break. it's so confusing sometimes. but i'll work
it out. it just might take a while. whatever the solution i
hope it isn't anything bad.




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