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randoms thoughts from a girl named eryn
2003-04-05 17:09:35 (UTC)

i'm feelin good, i truely am

i've had enough. i'm tired of being the 'nice guy'. i'm so
fed up with people i get sick to my stomach just thinking
about it. i have no strong anger...nor am pointing at
anyone specifically. but from here on out, i am going to do
the things i have to do. i am not going to linger around
for people to come around. i'm not kissing ass. and i think
when i want to go out and have fun i will...when i dont'
want to, i won't. if i want to say something that i think
is necessary i will, but if i don't i won't. if u hate me,
good...hate is a healthy thing every now and then, we can't
always 'like and love'. if u like me, great too, we'll get
along juts fine i'm sure. i think as of right now, i'm not
open to new relationships, because i don't give a flying
fuck about getting to know anymore irritating people than i
already know. i allow myself to get pissed over rediculous
things...thats over with starting RIGHT NOW. why make it
obvious to people who can't see where they've gone wrong? i
think thats making it too easy on them. let them play
stupid for a little while...all they are doing is making it
harder in themselves..when they realize they have to cut
the act out, they'll come along. if they don't ...fuck'em
either way it doens't matter. people come and people go.
thats life. i'm getting used to it, are you? i'm feeling
strong right now. i'm actually in a very good mood. i think
i've juts come to realism though...that shakespeare was
right, the world is just a stage and we are merely actors
given roles that we must play. well FUCK the role. because
i am going to play it however i want. i'm a 17 year old
stressed girl, who has many problems...friends, boys, i
drink too much...BLA BLA BLA BLA BLA...shut the hell up. no
one cares! i certainly dont' anymore. because its all going
to be different now. all of it. i'm cutting that life off
and i'm starting a new one. yes, i am. it really is that
easy. want to know why? because i said so. the majority
won't even notice it, maybe even some of my close friends.
but thats because they/ you don't know me from your ass to
the hole in the ground. so enough said. i'm hungry.

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