Anrui Kurayami

Kurayami's Tears
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2003-04-04 16:29:48 (UTC)

First Love

Current mood: erm... normal. just normal ^_^

Current music: Everything I do - Brian Adams

Current Phrases [there's a lot today!]:

I. "How many more people must we kill? How many more times
must I kill that little girl and her dog?" Heero Yuy,
Gundam Wing

II. "What are those sparkles? They're... my tears!" Trowa
Barton/Nanashi/Triton Bloom, the emotionless acrobat from
Gundam Wing.

III. "It's over 80 degrees in here! I'll just think of it
as a big sauna!" Quatre Rabarba Winner, Gundam Wing

IV. "Are you doing the right thing?" Wufei Chang, Gundam
Wing

V. "I might run and hide but I never tell a lie." Duo
Maxwell, Gundam Wing

VI. "I don't believe in destiny. Our lives are what we make
them," Kristel, my friend.

VII. "I have a dream..." Martin Luther King
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Lots of quotes today. I'm in a reflective mood. I've put in the whole
of Martin Luther king's most famous speech, because I was thinking
about it.

There has been so many things I never knew before told me
in the past few days. Now I know why I am so strong in
empathy, and why I can feel people's pain and emotion.

My dad and grampy were telepaths. They could talk to each
other with no words. When Grampy died, dad thought he was
the last one. That's not true. I am. He can do it much
better than me though, he can actually read people's
thoughts.

I won't go into the whole thing, but basically you're
reading the diary of a thirteen year old empath/telepath.
I'm sure you believe me [not]. My best friend and secret
love, Suiren, doesnt believe me. That's why i'll never tell
her.

Paul is trying to split me and Cat [now also known as
Mimisuku or Mimi-chan] up. he says its his revenge... for
what?

I am less in love with Suiren [who is better now, thank
god] now, because she is so disbelieving. She doesn't say
it to my face, but I can feel it.

Tom and the girl he dumped me for are going to have sex on
Saturday. Good for them.

Now I know what i look for in a relationship. Love, trust
and protection. i have [I can say it] a very fragile mind,
and am very sensitive. Possibly something to do with my
empathy.

I love these two songs at the moment. Everything I do, and
the english and japanese "First love". I'm putting the
lyrics at the end.

Mimisuku [Cat] is sleeping over tonight, which is why I
wrote this quite early.

Buh-bye...
~Anrui Kurayami~
xoxoxox

Lyrics:-

I. First Love by Jessa Zaragoza

once in a while you are on my mind
i think about the days that we had and i
dream if this would all come back to me

if only you knew every moment in time
love lingers on in my heart
just like your memories
how i want here to be with you once more

you are always gonna be the one
and you should know
how i wish i could have never let you go
come into my life again
oh don't say no.

you are always gonna be the one in my life
so true and i believe that i can never find
somebody like you my first love

once in a while you are in my dreams
i can feel the warmth of your embrace
and i pray that one day you'd come back to me

if only you knew every moment in time
love lingers on in my heart
just like your memories
how i long here to be with you once more

you will always be inside my heart
and you should know
how i wish i could have never let you go
come into my life again
please don't say no.

now and forever you are still the one in my heart
so true i believe i can never find
somebody like you my first love

you are always gonna be the one
and you should know
how i wish i could have never let you go
come into my life again
oh don't say no.

you are always gonna be the one
so true and i believe that i can never find
now and forever love

II. Everything I do by Bryan Adams

Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

I have a Dream
by Martin Luther King, Jr.
Delivered on the steps at the Lincoln Memorial in Washington D.C. on
August 28, 1963

Five score years ago, a great American, in whose symbolic shadow we
stand signed the Emancipation Proclamation. This momentous decree
came as a great beacon light of hope to millions of Negro slaves who
had been seared in the flames of withering injustice. It came as a
joyous daybreak to end the long night of captivity.

But one hundred years later, we must face the tragic fact that the
Negro is still not free. One hundred years later, the life of the
Negro is still sadly crippled by the manacles of segregation and the
chains of discrimination. One hundred years later, the Negro lives on
a lonely island of poverty in the midst of a vast ocean of material
prosperity. One hundred years later, the Negro is still languishing
in the corners of American society and finds himself an exile in his
own land. So we have come here today to dramatize an appalling
condition.

In a sense we have come to our nation's capital to cash a check. When
the architects of our republic wrote the magnificent words of the
Constitution and the declaration of Independence, they were signing a
promissory note to which every American was to fall heir. This note
was a promise that all men would be guaranteed the inalienable rights
of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory
note insofar as her citizens of color are concerned. Instead of
honoring this sacred obligation, America has given the Negro people a
bad check which has come back marked "insufficient funds." But we
refuse to believe that the bank of justice is bankrupt. We refuse to
believe that there are insufficient funds in the great vaults of
opportunity of this nation. So we have come to cash this check -- a
check that will give us upon demand the riches of freedom and the
security of justice. We have also come to this hallowed spot to
remind America of the fierce urgency of now. This is no time to
engage in the luxury of cooling off or to take the tranquilizing drug
of gradualism. Now is the time to rise from the dark and desolate
valley of segregation to the sunlit path of racial justice. Now is
the time to open the doors of opportunity to all of God's children.
Now is the time to lift our nation from the quicksands of racial
injustice to the solid rock of brotherhood.

It would be fatal for the nation to overlook the urgency of the
moment and to underestimate the determination of the Negro. This
sweltering summer of the Negro's legitimate discontent will not pass
until there is an invigorating autumn of freedom and equality.
Nineteen sixty-three is not an end, but a beginning. Those who hope
that the Negro needed to blow off steam and will now be content will
have a rude awakening if the nation returns to business as usual.
There will be neither rest nor tranquility in America until the Negro
is granted his citizenship rights. The whirlwinds of revolt will
continue to shake the foundations of our nation until the bright day
of justice emerges.

But there is something that I must say to my people who stand on the
warm threshold which leads into the palace of justice. In the process
of gaining our rightful place we must not be guilty of wrongful
deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking
from the cup of bitterness and hatred.

We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and
discipline. We must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into
physical violence. Again and again we must rise to the majestic
heights of meeting physical force with soul force. The marvelous new
militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not lead us to
distrust of all white people, for many of our white brothers, as
evidenced by their presence here today, have come to realize that
their destiny is tied up with our destiny and their freedom is
inextricably bound to our freedom. We cannot walk alone.

And as we walk, we must make the pledge that we shall march ahead. We
cannot turn back. There are those who are asking the devotees of
civil rights, "When will you be satisfied?" We can never be satisfied
as long as our bodies, heavy with the fatigue of travel, cannot gain
lodging in the motels of the highways and the hotels of the cities.
We cannot be satisfied as long as the Negro's basic mobility is from
a smaller ghetto to a larger one. We can never be satisfied as long
as a Negro in Mississippi cannot vote and a Negro in New York
believes he has nothing for which to vote. No, no, we are not
satisfied, and we will not be satisfied until justice rolls down like
waters and righteousness like a mighty stream.

I am not unmindful that some of you have come here out of great
trials and tribulations. Some of you have come fresh from narrow
cells. Some of you have come from areas where your quest for freedom
left you battered by the storms of persecution and staggered by the
winds of police brutality. You have been the veterans of creative
suffering. Continue to work with the faith that unearned suffering is
redemptive.

Go back to Mississippi, go back to Alabama, go back to Georgia, go
back to Louisiana, go back to the slums and ghettos of our northern
cities, knowing that somehow this situation can and will be changed.
Let us not wallow in the valley of despair.

I say to you today, my friends, that in spite of the difficulties and
frustrations of the moment, I still have a dream. It is a dream
deeply rooted in the American dream.

I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the
true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident:
that all men are created equal."

I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of
former slaves and the sons of former slaveowners will be able to sit
down together at a table of brotherhood.

I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a desert
state, sweltering with the heat of injustice and oppression, will be
transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice.

I have a dream that my four children will one day live in a nation
where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the
content of their character.

I have a dream today.

I have a dream that one day the state of Alabama, whose governor's
lips are presently dripping with the words of interposition and
nullification, will be transformed into a situation where little
black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little
white boys and white girls and walk together as sisters and brothers.

I have a dream today.

I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, every hill
and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain,
and the crooked places will be made straight, and the glory of the
Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together.

This is our hope. This is the faith with which I return to the South.
With this faith we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair
a stone of hope. With this faith we will be able to transform the
jangling discords of our nation into a beautiful symphony of
brotherhood. With this faith we will be able to work together, to
pray together, to struggle together, to go to jail together, to stand
up for freedom together, knowing that we will be free one day.

This will be the day when all of God's children will be able to sing
with a new meaning, "My country, 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty,
of thee I sing. Land where my fathers died, land of the pilgrim's
pride, from every mountainside, let freedom ring."

And if America is to be a great nation this must become true. So let
freedom ring from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire. Let
freedom ring from the mighty mountains of New York. Let freedom ring
from the heightening Alleghenies of Pennsylvania!

Let freedom ring from the snowcapped Rockies of Colorado!

Let freedom ring from the curvaceous peaks of California!

But not only that; let freedom ring from Stone Mountain of Georgia!

Let freedom ring from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee!

Let freedom ring from every hill and every molehill of Mississippi.
From every mountainside, let freedom ring.

When we let freedom ring, when we let it ring from every village and
every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to
speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white
men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to
join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual, "Free at
last! free at last! thank God Almighty, we are free at last!"


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