kloolisspryncess

*UnDeCiDeD fEeLiNgZ*
2003-04-04 00:36:22 (UTC)

*CoNfUzZlEd*

04.03.03 7:24 PM

hay.. its been a while.. *sigh* right now i hate 3
words.. "i don't know" and i the one that uses them the
most.. it sux. cuz i dunt know what i want. or maybe im not
realizing it or something.
i was thinking *i know, always a bad thing* and i came up
with something that might be going on w. me and JR. i feel
so comfortable w. him, but he's pretty much the only guy i
was ever seriously with.so maybe im afraid to leave
something behind that is the only thing i've ever really
had.
i dunt know. it might not be tru. it was just something i
was thinking about.
yeah, and i was talking him *JR* a couple days ago and i
said "yeah, it sux that i dunt know what i want. bc last
year i knew, but i couldn't get it"
-him- "if you would have told me..."
-me- "if i woulda told you? and when was i supposed 2 do
that? when u dumped me after a fckin day? or when u were
going out w. my best friend?"
:-D
i need to become more outgoing. i think im so afraid of
being hurt or people not liking me, that i dunt want to put
myself out there. im just the kind of person who wants
everyone to like her. and when someone doesn't, i
automatically think that im a bad person. and i'd like give
myself the benefit of the doubt, but a lot of the time, it
dunt work.
yeah, and i got to see a bit on the musical 2day.. i
thought it was okay.. not great, but not horrible. the
background was a lil shaky... but like i said, i only got
to see like 20-30 minutes of the end... im going 2morrow
night to see all of it. its gonna b kewl. i can't wait to
see angela, ashley, alex, kristin, andrew, john, and
everyone else i know in there in action.. LoL

well, im playing a game on GURL.com.. g2g
buh-byez~ ttyl luvyahz~
~*~*{{TaY}}*~*~




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