gummibear212

A new beginning
2003-04-03 19:19:56 (UTC)

It's been a while...

Yeah I don't even remember when my last post was. i'm
sorry i will try to keep it more up to date. so what is
new in my life...well a everything and nothing at the same
time. Go figure.

School is almost over thank god!! I'm not sure if I can
handle much more of this god for saken place. I've got a
few good friends here. Which I guess I should count myself
lucky b/c finding good friends so quickly is a blessing.

My car felt the need to die yesterday. RIP my lovely car.
Dad's coming this weekend to hopefully resurrect it. Which
will be nice. Haven't been home in a while. I'd like to
go home soon but I dunno we'll see. I have to go home at
some point because I have to get a dress for formal. Yes
can you believe I got asked to go to a formal. What a
shock. Maybe this will make up for my senior prom.

It sucks...thinking about prom. It should've been with
Sean. But it wasn't. And to this day I still regret it
not being with him. For some reason he still crosses my
mind everyday. It's that reason right there that I believe
that I am still in love with him. I still talk about him
and I still even see myself marrying him. He was the only
one I felt completly comfortable with. I have yet to find
another guy who can do that for me. Part of my wants to
tell him that but I know he is in love with sarah. and i
don't want to come between that. as hard as it is not to i
don't want to interfere with that until i know that if
anyone gets hurt trying to resurrect a relationship that
it's me. sarah has nothing to do with me thinking about
doing this it's completly me. i think it took me being
away from home and dating other guys to realize that he is
still the one for me.

but anyways away from all that sappy stuff... what else is
going on...well nothing all that new... still goin out but
not quite so often i'm just kinda chillin trying to make
sure my grades stay where they need to be. which right now
they just arent there but they will be i'm sure.

well thats all for right now i'll try to get this thing
goin again




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