Jams

Lesbian....Yes!
2003-04-03 08:44:25 (UTC)

4-2-03

Slept my whole day away basically and got up when I had to
pick up my sister from school. We ate church's chicken
cause we got some kick ass coupons and then I went to
work. Since my stomach was on a real topsy turvy thing
yesterday, I was a bit hesitant to eat anything today. But
of course I was starving and so I ate a little bit of my
dinner. No sooner than it was in my mouth than my stomach
started hurting like there was no tomorrow. So all I had
were crackers w/no salt and tea to calm my nausea. I don't
know what the hell is wrong with me but I better make my
doc appt tomorrow.

So work tonight was pretty calm. I got my first reviews on
my files from last night and I did pretty damn good. Only
had one where my shit was all fucked up. But it was my
first one so I am okay. I worked on two more tonight and
if I keep up the good work, I will be a full blown SLC by
hopefully the end of this month. See someone who is
already a Senior Loan Coordinator is my mentor which means
I have to validate a certain amount of loans and have her
review them with a satisfactory before I can claim my
position. So basically I am an SLC in training.

Anyways, work Chris was a whole new girl tonight. She
treated me with respect after I told her about herself
last night. She was all sweet and pretty with me but not
in a fake way like she is with some of the girls we don't
like in our crew. We had a nice time tonight listening to
oldies and laughing about silly stuff. I like that, it
makes the night go by faster. She took me to the restrooom
and showed me this narley bruise she had on her ass. I
gotta say this girl's ass is fucking awesome. It's not
like all tight and buns of steel but nice and round and
juicy and yummy. I love thongs too cause I can see it all.

Yeah that was pretty detailed but whatever. I guess her
hubby left back on ship again which I had no idea. How sad
ause he may not be back until May of 2004. Damn that must
suck. I told her that if she got tired of using that toy
she has, I could be her toy if she wanted. LOL!!! I love
how we go back and forth with the flirtiness, it's cool.

Anyways, I told my sis that I had a crush on Devon today
and she was like awwww. She said how wierd we all are
because we all seem to like one another. What a smart lil
one she is. She asked me if Cathy liked Devon too and I
was like, "Don't know". She asked me if Devon knew about
my crush and I told her yes but that it would never happen
because Devon will never ever see me that way. My sis was
like awww again and patting my hand. She told me that
maybe Devon just didn't know she liked me and she may
figure it out one day. I was like "um...no". But still the
thought was cute.

I really need to get a grip on this whole "Devon" thing
anyways because it is really starting to get under my damn
skin. All I do is think of her and want to like say stuff
to her and call her and I think of songs I can send to
her. How dumb am I??? I mean really how much more torture
can I possibly put myself in with this person?? You know
what I need? A life outside of the girls so that my mindis
not constantly thinking about her. Yeah, that will go real
far. I love my girls and can't possibly think about not
hanging with them. They are my life outside of me.

What do I do??? Feedback anyone???




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