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no more tears 2 cry they dryed up & went
2003-04-03 03:06:03 (UTC)

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Jimmy Eat World - My Sundown lyrics

I see it around me, I see it in everything.
I could be so much more than this.
I said my goodbye's this is my sundown.
I'm gonna be so much more than this.
With one hand high, you'll show them your progress.
You'll take your time, but no one cares.
No one cares.
I need you to show me the way from crazy.
I wanna be so much more than this.
With one hand high, you'll show them your progress.
You'll take your time, but no one cares.
With one hand high, you'll show them your progress.
You'll take your time, but no one cares.
No one cares.
I could be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I wanna be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I could be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I wanna be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I wanna be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I wanna be so much more than this.
Good goodbye lovely time.
Good goodbye tin sunshine.
Good goodbye I'll be fine.
Good goodbye, good goodnight.

This song reminds me of a lot.My mom got a grade
check on me the other day. My grades are hell. I'm not
really trying..... I think I am but I could do so much more
then this.....see like the song. She simply said Hallie
just drop out and get your GED.... drop out......

drop out??

Become a satistic?

...*sighs*

I'm tired.... really tired I was up late helping my moms
friend with an "emergency" Sure yeah right..... 4 hours of
sleep in me......

Drop out........

I'm really thinking about it....

Get my GED and be done....
I could do it ....
But would I...
Will I......

Really thinking about it......


I freaked Tara out today my moms friend brought her a
bithday cake and such and it scared her to death cause
she doesnt know him and she got a hold of me at
school.....crazy kid....gosh without that happening today I
would be crying......

Drop out?

get my GED.......

ahhh a poem is coming to my head about that no way
am I writing it.....

Oh my gosh my Soldiers Thoughts poem... I let some
ultra cool guy from the poetry site read it ...cause he has
books and things.....and he loved it

he loved it....
Asked me to join his site....
told me i had to post it ...
and then reviewed it

i thought he would like it but he said it was perfect....
talk about wow......

I was honored....
so without taras thing today and that i would be in a little
ball on my bed crying....


my mom is right....
i will never pass
and the thing that hurts me the most is she was so
damn nice about it..

.........
............
...............

thinking ....
big decision.....
but
it must be made by the end of the summer
4 months to figure it out..
but when i get my grades for the semester
that will tell me....
and well
i am....


after this year...
im dropping out
and getting my GED and then im done.....

ill get a job save my cash.....
and go to college...

and start my adult hood early

damn am i scared

am i being stupid
is my mom really right

i cant stand school
i cant stand the immatureness
i cant have a realisitic conversation with anyone there
because they are stuck on who is dating who and all
that ....

what about like real things .....
meaningful things...

i guess that is highschool.....
i guess....


im going to bed.....maybe......
thinking......still

dont freak out on me..... cause i know shannon will read
this and go ape shit...... and hey this is my diary and my
thoughts and by telling you about it i gave you a key into
my head so dont misuse it.....


~Hallie




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