Cath

I miss you when you're gone

We're having a rough time right now..
Because I'm not handeling the distance very well at the
moment. Everything was fine until monday night. He had been
out of reach for a week again (not allowed to bring his
phone) and he came back Monday night. I had really missed
talking to him, so I was really glad he was back. So was
he, and we had a nice chat. He was supposed to be at the
station, where he's allowed to call me, for a week. Then he
was going on this rehersal thing or whatever, because of
the easterholidays. But then he called me back and told me
that he was going out again the next morning (yesterday)
and wouldn't be back till Friday night. I'm going away with
my class this weekend, so I won't be able to talk so much
with him this weekend. So basically, we'll have almost no
contact for three weeks. And that really, really sucks.
Cause he means so much to me, he's such a big part of who I
am and what my life is like, so I'm finding it hard to
suddenly have to live without him. I was ok with him being
away for two weeks during the holiday, cause I've known
about it for a long time and I'm going home for the
holiday.. But when he told me he had to leave again, I got
really upset. I wasn't upset with him, cause obviously,
it's not his fault. But I'm just really fed up with this
right now. I'm sick of having a boyfriend I can't be with,
not even talk to. I told him that it feels like I don't
have a boyfriend at all, and he got scared and thought I
was trying to break up with him.. Which I wasn't at all. So
things got kind of messy.. I almost started crying and
everything sucked.. then we had to hang up and.. well, I
was really sad. Later I got a text from him saying he was a
mess, he really missed me and I mean the world to him. That
was really sweet, but it just made me miss him even more
and not being able to stop crying.
My friends have been really sweet, they understand that I'm
having a rough time.
Tomorrow I'm having an exam.. It counts 40 % of my total
grade in this subject, so I should do well.. I've studying
the last couple of days, so I think I'll do all right, but
I'm kind of nervous. And with this with Ben going on, I
really wish I could just relax and have fun, not worry
about school..

Hold on to love,
that is what I do
Now that I've found you
And from above,
everything's stinking
They're not around you
And in the night,
I could be helpless
I could be lonely,
sleeping without you
And in the day,
everything's complex
There's nothing simple,
when I'm not around you

But, I miss you when you're gone
That is what I do....
Bay, Bay, Bay
And it's going to carry on,
That is what I knew...
Bay, Bay, Bay

Hold on to my hands,
I feel I'm sinking,
sinking without you
And to my mind,
everything's stinking,
stinking without you

And in the night,
I could be helpless
I could be lonely,
sleeping without you
And in the day
everything's complex
There's nothing simple,
when I'm not around you

Hold on to love,
that is what I do
Now that I've found you
and from above,
everything's stinking
They're not around you

and in the night,
I could be helpless
I could be lonely,
sleeping without you
And in the day,
everything's complex
There's nothing simple,
when I'm not around you

But, I miss you when you're gone,
that is what I do:
Bay, Bay, Bay
And it's going to carry on,
that is what I knew:
Bay, Bay, Bay.

Hold on to my hands,
I feel I'm sinking,
sinking without you
And to my mind,
everything's stinking,
stinking without you

And in the night,
I could be helpless
I could be lonely,
sleeping without you
And in the day
everything's complex
There's nothing simple,
when I'm not around you...