Stabz

Stabz's Encrypted Ramblings
2003-04-02 07:13:31 (UTC)

I would never ejaculate inside a girl again

I can't find any other words to describe these dreams I've
been having of Liana lately. Why now? Why can't it wait?!
At such a crucial moment in my life where my fate will be
ultimately determined.Well, almost lah! There's no doubt
about the fact that I've always harboured a certain longing
for her even up till this day, where THAT fateful nite
seemed a mile away now. I missed everything about her that
a guy can possibly love: The way she flipped her long hair
when the wind blew, (though I'd still be a sucker for girls
in ponytails..some things never change), the many times she
cocked her head quizzically epitomizing her clueless nature
while we're discussing the mind-boggling issues happening
in this fucked-up world these days, the times I gazed at
her fair, sweet and lovely face, saccharine and innocent
while she was sleeping in bed.

What more can I say, the girl's poetry in motion...a living
example of music..Music you can't turn off and keeps on
haunting you in the middle of the night like the infectious
melodies of Cathy Dennis's Touch Me (All Night Long). Music
that keeps you upbeat and looking forward to tommorow even
though u dread waking up next morning only to do the same
damn thing over and over again. Love is life, they
say...but I've known better..it is more than that..cos I'm
beginning to see how good a girl she was, even though I've
been guilty of deflowering her, something I regretted doing
even if ppl tell me I shouldnt have anything to regret. I
would've wanted to marry the girl I've made love to the
first time, everybody feels that way...but what am I to do,
I don't even know what I want..or who I want to be.

Hell, maybe only time will tell, wouldn't it?




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