Sara

Kittie's Kit-Kat
2003-04-01 23:22:38 (UTC)

advice please

I’m so confused! I’m best friends with Chris, but
everyone
(especially my parents) keep on ragging on me about
how we’re
secretly dating. How we actually have mad sex when
we’re
together, and that the friend thing is just a cover story.
Bullshit.
I wish my parents would just leave me the fuck alone!
My mom
says constantly that she just wants me to be happy and
I was
happy being friends with Chris. But then I ruined it. I
fucked up
everything. My dad confronted me with five hundred
accusations
consisting of bullshit, and I got sick of it. I spoke with my
Best
Friend ,Heather, and we both agreed that I should cool
it down
with Chris.
We drove around Quincy and finally picked him up for
ice cream. I
told him we had to calm down the friendship and he
was fine.
I hate my parents. I hate them for making me do this. I
had a great
friendship with Chris. It was amazing. I told him almost
everything
and no matter how mad or sad I was, he could always
make me
laugh. i never wanted to date him, ever. I never thought
of him
romantically at all. We were best friends, and now it’s
ruined. Now
he thinks that my parents hate him and they want me to
stay away
from hi. He thinks I don’t like him anymore. He hasn’t
said any of
this, but I know.
I miss being friends with him. I miss him. We used to
talk after
school everyday on the phone. He used to make me
laugh, and
now I constantly feel like crying.
My dad had said “You never hang out with your other
friends as
much as you hang out with Chris.”
First of all, I go to a private all-girls school where all my
friends live
like five hundred miles away from me! Chris goes to my
church
and the public school down the street. So he’s closer!
Second of all, I see my gal-friends all day, and all we
want to do
after school is go home.
I miss it. I fucked up and now everything sucks.
Besides that, I kept thinking about spending more time
with my
other friends. I was going to pick up my friend Heather
(different
one than before) from the train station so she wouldn’t
have to take
the public transportation, but my parents said I couldn’t
because
there’s a law against driving with some one under the
age of 18 in
the car for the first 6 months you have your license. Of
course, I
have done this before, I have had other friends in the
car with me,
and my parents haven’t really cared.
I feel like they only want me to have friends that they
can
personally pick out for me. My mom keeps saying that
she only
wants me to be happy. But it hurts me so much.
I’m always on the verge of tears.
I miss Tatiana. She’s my very bestest friend from
Columbia.
She lived here last year, but went home for this year.
She’s
coming back this summer, but it sucked so much with
out her. She
used to support me and push me to do my best. Now I
don’t have
anyone like that. Chris didn’t really say “Go do you
home work” but
he made me feel like I was perfect the way I was. That I
was a
good person. Now I feel like shite.
I’ve lost my two best friends in one year.
My best friend Heather (not the train one) is graduating
this year
and she’s going to Florida Southern next year for
college.
That’ll be three in one year.
I’m so sad.
It hurts sooo bad, and my parents just keep saying that
they want
me to be happy.
They know how awesome Tatiana was and they like
her a lot. But
they don’t approve as Chris.
He is a little rough around the edges: he wants to join
the Union
and be a plumber, he also drinks (he’s 18), and I just
got him to
quit smoking pot.
But all my parents know is that he wants to be a
plumber. They
think he’s headed for a dead end and that he’s
basically “not good
enough for me”.




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