Chelsea

Strange Days are Coming
2003-04-01 16:47:03 (UTC)

All is Well

I wish that people would just stop worring about me!!!
(Except Kelly I told her that she could) I mena it's not
like I don't know what I've got myself into, it's not like
I've changed my entire attitude towards life. The scary
thing is I actually want to live more now that I'm with Joe
then a couple of months ago. It was a
scary thing to have the knife to your wrists and have
nobody care if you did it or not. Joe cares about that.
He may or may not be in love with me but he does care when
I'm mad or upset or sad or hating life so much that I just
want to die! What's wrong with that, what's wrong with
soemone just becasue they are a little deviant. Jus
becasue they don't fit into your social norms. Everyone
else feels that they know best what I should do, why can't
they just trust that I understand what I'm doing to myself
and that it's really not hurting me that badly. It's
making me feel better it's making me feel alive. If he's
only using me for sex fine! If he flirts with other girls
fine! (I flirt with other boys) If all I get out of this is
a few evenings of pleasure then that's all I get out of it!
I UNDERSTAND THAT!!!!
Anyhoo
Later Days




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