Timothy

Jack's Twisted Kingdom
2003-04-01 08:22:47 (UTC)

elegance

i am listening to Tori amos

i have all of her music

and man, is it ever fucking sad stuff

i mean, like wow..

but, i think it's got the melodic flow
i so enjoy

still nothing interesting going on
trying to figure out whether to quit
my job or not

this month is going to be hell

i can just tell

lol

but it's getting off to a fine start

i don't have to put up that fuckwit
anthony as a boss any more...

lawan is my new team lead,
yay

the guy knows how to cook curry
and gives me lifts home during the
week, and.... has a personality


sigh

i need friends... i need to figure out
whether or not, i am going to be able
to leave in november as planned and
go..

where? shit, thats the problem isn't

i don't know where i want to go...

bc? born there, all my cousins and
family there, but they don't talk to me
much, barely know i exist, except
perhaps as an afterthought

edmonton? my friend rick and his
girl live there, i could start out fresh
there.. go to school...

montreal... don't know anyone there,
don't know why i want to go there

europe? i still want to fuck off and
backpack around.... i wonder if i
really have the moxy to pull it off

australia? mm, no, celeste, well
would be fun... I suppose if mike
still wants to go there next march
i will... but...

Japan... Hell yeah... but, i don't know
if i could make it there... i don't know
enough of the language... although
i know two people with whom i could
maybe crash with...

UK... heh, i know a guy here, who would
get his parents to let me crash there
maybe... but i'd have to become better
friends with him i think... and thats just really
shitty... i mean.. fuck... whatever...


sigh

i am man with no country, no grrl and
no hope of the future for the time and
mindless masses crush me beneath the
yoke of thier tiredless banter

i wish for naught else but the love of a fair
maiden and the embrace of the tiger lily
floating in the waters of the soulless shores

havok ridden and pain driven i wander to
and fro, aimlessly contriving the matters
of nicotine induced rages


so........




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