zizzledpenguin

poor not very updated journal
2003-04-01 01:46:40 (UTC)

Am I addicted? And is it appropriate to ask about someones sexuality~

-- Addicted or just curious? I want to try my parents bong
(and mom’s wine, but the bong would be more fun). I’m not
sure how to use or bong ( or lighter ) but I can figure
something out. Anymore, my insatiable cursioty always gets
the better of me: ‘ I wonder what would happen if.. Should
I? Too late, Im going to ‘. That attidtue can lead to some
interesting things... I’ve been imangining the grassy
taste, and the warm- almost hot feel filling my throat.
Then the way my mind goes numb, and reality mixes with the
dreams of my mind and none of it seems real. I start
feeling lonely because no one understands what I’m really
thinking or what I mean by my words, although how could
they? But the lonely feeling will insist it has a place in
my thoughts, and who am I to argue as the realness and my
thinking mind cowers away in fear of this boldness
threatening it? Dare I say it? Of course I do; It’s
different. Same thing I said about cutting, only here it
could prove far more hazardous as it can easily mentally
and emontionally hook me to it... [supressed laugh] -Don’t
worry, I’ll try it again.

{This next bit was random wondering}
-- An assembly of students watch a performance. Afterwards
the two actors -both male- ask for questions. “Is that your
boyfriend?” The child is hushed, scolded and told what an
inappropirate question that was. Say the actors were male
and female and the child asked the female the question -
would it still have been so inappropriate?




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