nin137

Nick's Journal
2003-03-28 18:28:51 (UTC)

I haven't done anything I want to or should do today

I haven't done a damn thing today that i want or should
do. i shot the shit with my german professor (yes i talk
to my professors outside of class). he's really funny, he
was saying how ridiculous it was that women tought
themselves as members of diversity. i mean how can they
truly be a part of diversity? is it the vagina? must be.
so anyhow, then i was going to either run or read some but
instead i walked around in circles trying to figure out if
i should spend money and go to taco bell. i meandered
through the ole' campus running this very tough decision
through my head.
i then headed to taco bell, and had the nice dude take my
order. he's all smiling and shit, must be hiiiiiiigh. so
now i'm sitting at my computer not really doing a damn
thing although i guess i should, or could. like i still
want to run but i just don't see it happening.
i really love these days just sitting around bored out of
my mind, not really knowing what to do, and at the same
time realizing that i should do something so that my life
seems less insignificant. but i guess if you're content
with just sitting back once in a while you appreciate
stuff more. i guess i'm gonna go on campus and read some,
i love doing that cos i can observe people. i think
that's a european thing, you have no idea how many tiems
people catch me watching them, i must seem like a fucking
psycho. the thing is i don't even look away, i just keep
on looking and i think it bothers some people cos they'll
give me really shitty looks if i don't stop.
i don't mind if people observe me, as long as they're not
stalking me, i can't imagine i'd be that intresting. i
mean mostly i'm just talking to myself and walking in
circles.
you know what's funny? the fetishes that kind of are
acceptable compared ot the ones that absolutely aren't.
take for example domination/submission.....pretty
accepted. anal sex, pretty accepted, especially by gay
guys. yet you dont' get many guys saying, "man i'd love
to stick a couple of fingers up her ass", or "man i'd like
to have that sheep give me head". these are two more taboo
fetishes. it's kidna funny that we "allow" some but
others we are so down on. foot fetish is alright, but
urinating all over someone isn't. i guess some people
would say that one is more disgusting than another, but i
dont' think that's really it. we just gotta joke about it
more, then golden showers will be something we'll see on
friends or some shit. weird stuff.
how did i get on that topic?
time for class.




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