bitterboi

ramblings of a mouth....
2003-03-26 12:23:42 (UTC)

do you know?

i had a dream that i was left in a room full of snakes...
just left there with this blank expression before they
turned away. i hate snakes, & i know the meaning. i'm
wondering if it's representing the past, tonight, or what
may be coming.
have you ever felt like you actually might not wake up in the
morning? not wishing or hoping for it, but an actual
feeling of fear. i have always feared dying alone...
tonight, i fear not waking. i'm not afraid of death, but
i'm not ready... i wouldn't be terribly upset if many of
the things i want to do were not done, but there's so much
i feel i have still yet to say to some people who are
precious to me. that's what makes me not ready. do the
people in my life that know i love them, know just how
much? "i would offer you pulse, give you my breath..."
the people who aren't in my life, but live in my heart...
i need to sleep, i'm afraid...




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