Wildthing1983

.......Holding on

Trapped

Reaching, grasping, missing
lost in a circle of emotions
darkness surrounds
anger flares
red
black
red
black
lost in the pain of being alive
can I end it?
can I survive it?
red
black
red
black
trapped

Once again I have fallen prey to the sick emotions swirling
inside my mind
They keep coming back again and again
I try to be happy, that fails.
Everything I do fails
At this very moment, I sit here contemplating death.......
Would it really make a difference?
Is it worth it or is it a hopeless dream?
Many things I long to have are hopeless dreams,
This I have come to realize.
Never to be happy, Never to have real friends, Never to
have anything but myself
Even family turns it back on you.
Family, friends, love, everything... a hopeless dream.
I'm going to stop reaching for things I can never have.
Just live the life I'm meant to live, if I can.

-R.I.P.