Indie

Callem J Benneton
2003-03-24 04:12:35 (UTC)

FEB 24th-28th

Had a fight with *R* on the weekend, man it sucked ~sighs~
A friend of mine of five years announced they were in love
with me, a week before Im meant to be going to stay with
them. I was really upset, she kept going on about how
worried she was that I would reject her an not love her. I
dont hold any love for her except as a friend an had no
clue what to say to her. So instantly I turned to *R* who
didnt even register, barely even talked to me, I couldnt
believe it an I just couldnt talk to her. I always run
away from my problems I just cant help it, an the idea of
her not loving me was a really big problem.
I turned off my messengers an just couldnt talk to her
anymore, I continueed talking to someone else though an
soon found that *R* was asking ppl if I was talking to
them, so in the end she emialed me. I knew I was so out of
line an I couldnt stand the idea that I may have hurt her,
so I emailed her a song 'I think I love you'
She mailed me back the next day :0) she had gotten what I
sent her for valentines, a kinda omen I guess an it made
me think.
*R* explained in her mail that she had only gone quiet on
me as she felt threatened, that someone I could actually
be with was in love with me. Then I felt bad because I
hadnt showed *R* how much I loved her. Everyday in
everyway ~thinks~ so really I guess it was my own problem,
one created by me ~sighs~
OH an joy of joys, I took my car to get resprayed this
week. Silver just does nothing for my eyes ~giggles~ I
have a Pontiac Firebird, so of course I had to go for the
classic blue with white stripe ~l~ what else could i do




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