forget me

it's that simple
2003-03-23 23:51:19 (UTC)

cause this hate. is fucking real.

.by the way. i Capitalize things i like. kno that.


So. um yesterday. i was supposed to go to Denham for the
show. and i was happy because robyn invited me to go. well.
so its about time to go. and i notice my brother deleted
ALLLL of my fucking Pictures and Music off the comp. so i
yell ALOT. and get in a Fight. and my dad tells me i cant
go. and blah. so i went Insane last night.

well today.... there was another show in Denham and i was
so Happy. cause i was going. and got to see the Fucking
kenmores play their last all ages show. and get to see as
cities burn and Pretty Kyle Davis in same dull Star. well.
so i talk to Amanda early this morning and i ask her:

me:are you with robyn?
Manda:nope.
me:well are you going to the Show today with us?
Manda: um im not sure i havent talked to robyn.
me: oh ok. well. ill call her.

so i call robyn at like 1145 or so. and im all.

me:hey are we still on for today?
robyn: um idk. cause my mom is sending me and Amanda cause
she chilled here this morning to walmart with a huge list
of things i have to get. and she said i can go if we get
back in time. but i dont think were gunna get back in time
to go.
me:well alright just call me when you kno.
robyn: alright.

so. i sit... wait... and sit.... and wait for a little bit
longer till 2 o clock rolls around... so im figuring ok.
maybe we are still going and well just be a little late. or
maybe shes not going. or something. so i call and leave a
voice message:

hey well i figure were not going but idk i just wanted to
call to make sure.

and i didnt hear from her so whatever. im pretty pissed
that i didnt get to go. because i wanted to go SOOOOOOOOO
Fucking bad. but its ok cause i mean she probably TRIED to
make it home on time but she just couldnt. blah blah. well
so i call Kyle Davis to tell him that i cant come. and i
ask Him ya kno just wondering if robyn and them are
there.... and his response:

Yes.

OK. alright. well. im happy. and i hope it was lovely. and
they had a Fucking wonderful time.

emily gets Fucked over yet again.

so this weekend was Super shitty. But i want to thank
someone: my new best friend.

last night as i was having my nervous breakdown i decide to
go watch a dvd in my room. and i put on the Disney movie
ANNIE. and i just giggled to Alicia Morton ALLLL NIGHT
long. SHE is the only person who made me smile this
weekend. besides Tony. but he has a Penis. so it doesnt
count. But Alicia is my new best friend. lol. she makes me
smile. Thank You.

So im putting out this AD in the newspaper right.

LOOKING FOR A FRIEND.
someone who wont Fuck me over.
someone who wont talk shit behind my Back.
someone who wont ditch me for shitty Guys. or any Guy. OR
any GIRL either. Shit.
someone who will be Honest and tell me what she REALLY
thinks. especially if its about me.
someone who i will have Fun and be Silly with.
someone who will Mosh with me.
someone who will keep ALL of my secrets.
someone who doesnt feel like they have to compete with me
or try to be me.
someone who will be a REAL Fucking friend.

so far. yeah. no one. except Guys. Guys are the best.

im not looking for a Boyfriend. ive got Wayde. uh.

i DO love Kyla tho. and i cant wait to go see Her. get your
girls ready. because THOSE girls are nice. so i want to
move. thank you.
and that means i get to see Wayde.

AFI is Fucking God. and Kyle Davis agrees with me. and we
had a Fucking Marvelous conversation. :) shhhh.

fare Fucking well.
emily


Wayde told me Goodbye today. :) Smile. Excellent. :) Smile.
distance keep your distance. :) Smile. just go away. :)
Smile. another one of those conversations. :) Smile.
Nothing can be normal. :) Smile. weird weird weird weird
weird is all thats between us. :) Smile.
Note the Sarcasm there.

What the Fuck Ever man.


am i the Star beneath the stairs.
am i the Ghost upon the stage.
am i Your A n y t h i n g?

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If i could. i would Capitalize all those stars.

i watch the Stars as they

fall from the Sky.
i held a fallen Star and it wept
for me. Dying.


i feel the
fallen Stars

encircle me. now as they Cry.




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