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dbnsfg
2003-03-22 16:40:46 (UTC)

Ah Fk

i was okay.. kinda.. no, i lie, i wasnt.. but now im even
worse

im not going to drop the blame, because the tears running
down my face as i type are my own fault, as it was i that
called it off, and yes, sometimes i do regret it.. but like
i tried to tell people.. reality

but he's online, and has been for the past 23 minutes, and
as i saw his name on my buddy list, my heart began to pound
faster and faster, my palms sweated and the tears just came
gushing

im afraid to even try to speak to him, because i know it
will cause arguments and i just dont have the stability to
deal with it right now

i dont want to go back to hurting myself

i cant, and i wont

maybe going in the chatroom is a bad idea afterall.. maybe
i should just shut down this bastard computer and fuck you
all off, cos whats the point in trying? im a walking
contradiction to every belief i try to preach to anyone
either willing, or retarded enough to pay attention

im nothing but a child.. i dont want to think about
anything but childish things, and my piercings.. i will
have more, trust me

fuck it

fuck you all

blow me

ass holes




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