Aunjaleis

Alpha Aunja-leis
2003-03-22 05:02:26 (UTC)

So, I think that I remain..

So, I think that I remain single to really entertain my
friends. I will own that the men I meet are clearly the
most entertaining stories of all. I am getting restless and
all of being single. So, as I told Kat I am exploring other
avenues. She was like, what? I was like I don;t know yet-
but I will by the end of the week. I was like damn kitty I
am a quality girl and I deserve to be wooed and some fun
dates. Now that she is single-I think we will be hitting up
these single events-including-but not limited to the 4
minute date. Which should clearly be a great story!
I spent the day cleaning the apt I threw a lot of stuff
away. I also spent some time looking through old poetry I
wrote- mainly about Nathan and other men. But, damn the
poetry about Nathan was so damn raw and good. Like you
would have thought that this man hung the moon. At the
time, he did. SHould he ever divorce, I will give him the
things I wrote and a letter of course. As I have told
others lately, when you tell someone how you feel-it isn;t
you being vunerable-there is power in saying listen I loved
you and maybe you didn't love me-but know that I loved you.
I love being in love and really feeling it. I like it more
when I know they love me too. I also went through old cards
that people had given me. One in particular stucj out
because it was from someone who I haven't really talked to
in depth in a long time and in the letter he said I adore
you -that really stuck out in my mind because I always
thought that he didn;t really care about me. When you read
letters from people who were your past and some in the
present and you can read that they really loved you it is a
nice feeling. I like to know that people care and love me-
but who doesn't? Well, on that note -I am off to
bed....tomorrow I meet Kitty and Tarin at the market- I
will be giving them a gift that I painted. Renoir move
over...




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