Jake

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2003-03-22 04:49:45 (UTC)

March 21, 2003 (Pain and hope)

My whole body aches. My legs are stiff, my chest muscles,
shoulders, back, legs, knees, neck, everything wails our in
pain. What a glorious pain it is thought, achieved only in a
half an hour but still being awarded a day and a half later.

If I were sure of anything anymore I would be lucky. I did
rather well in band today. Which confuses me. I am actually
starting to really enjoy Biology. Mostly because I get to
play with the millipede if Mr. DeMarco lets me. I also
talked to Steve during lunch today and found out that te
yearbook staff needs a photographer. I enjoy it and can
maybe score a few extra points as well.

I am starting to try to understand what drives me to be the
way I am. I want to be a more benevolent person to others,
but it is difficult. When handed controversy and oposition
you give it back, I wish to not do so. However it becomes
almost shocking to people in my class when I do not strike
out at others who insult me greatly publicly in class. I do
not wish to hurt. I have also seen the folly of cursing. It
is stupid and enhances speach to no great extent.

I suddenly have the urge to begin writing a story of some
sort. I have one going with Chris which is going rather
well, but I have the urge to begin my own. I hope I do not
have one which I put as much hope into as "The Last
Casualty" and it is torn to pieces. I wish only to write or
create something to benefit and entertain others and myself.

I have been talking to my friend for a good amount of time
tonight. She seems like one of the smartest and most
charasmatic people I know. I wish there were more like that.
Unfortunately rare people are not considered a comodity and
as such are sometimes discarded like refuse. She however
will make something of herself, I garrauntee it.

Thoughts to inter here have begun to flee my mind, so I will
retire this entry with the others.




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