AgeNt RaYne

mY tyPe of pOisOn
2003-03-21 03:12:02 (UTC)

love humiliates yOu...

well hello. its been awhile hasnt it? today is not the
greatest day i have ever known, can't wait for tomorrow,
maybe it will be better. I am a sophmore and I stink at
math, but my parentals are making me take trig. AhHhH!
there's so much pressure, I just can't stand it. i try to
tell my mom about how depressed i am, and she just blames it
on me "ignorance." maybe its not me mom!!! listen to me!!!
thats the way parents are i guess, well at least mine. never
listen always blame it on me. arGh.i mean, i want to go to
college, of course, but maybe its just too much right now.
my doctor even told me i'm too stressed out and thats why i
get sick so much, but they won't even listen to this
intelligent man who has been my doctor since i was born. i
am barely passing algebra two, is it really a good idea to
make me take it if there's a possibility that i might fail
miserably?! i don't know, maybe i just shouldnt think about
it now, but i can't help but think about my future. well, on
a lighter note, i'm "dating" this guy named sean. it's like
he's never gonna ask me out. it's driving me insane. i think
he might be just using me. well let me tell you now sean, if
you are, you're not gonna get into my pants, get it? got it?
good. but if you honestly like me, just do it already, no
time is better than the present. because otherwise, i will
end up thinking its just a bunch a crap and i'll end up
moving on a liking another guy after a month or so "dating"
so get to it, otherwise, you might lose me. i'm very
impatient. i like you, yes, but i hate waiting. it makes me
think of things like you are using me or whatever and they
seem to become more true with every passing day that i wait.
its making me go crazy. if we are never gonna get together,
than the mushy mushy crap like holding hands has got to
stop. i will not be used. if you really do like me, then i
am sorry if i offended you by this message. but i will not
go through with a friends with benefits thing. it is totally
gay.but yea. chip is my best friend and i love him to death.
hi chip!!! but yea, he has helped me out with so much stuff.
i love 5th period p.e. because of him too. well him and
jason and brandon and cady. they all rock. yea my hockey
team is number one!!! 7-0!!! hahaha! we rocK!!!!o yea, i
love my non-biological daughter too! hi tanya! thanks for
being there for me. she understands when no one does...

maybe tomorrow will be better.....

...hatred cradles you....




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