All by Myself..

Somethings are better left unsaid...
2003-03-20 23:56:33 (UTC)

Am I your Anything?

I quite like the little world i have created...it is very
much a child-like state. In my room last night I felt like
the only person alive, I looked out my window into the
darkness and focusing on the distant lights of the town
below and I felt alone, but comfortable.

FACT!
denis leary is the BEST fucking comedian in the world.

"Most people think life sucks, and then you die. Not me. I
beg to differ. I think life sucks, then you get cancer,
then your dog dies, your wife leaves you, the cancer goes
into remission, you get a new dog, you get remarried, you
owe ten million dollars in medical bills but you work hard
for thirty-five years and you pay it back and then -- one
day -- you have a massive stroke, your whole right side is
paralyzed, you have to limp along the streets and speak
out of the left side of your mouth and drool but you go
into rehabilitation and regain the power to walk and the
power to talk and then -- one day -- you step off a curb
at Sixty-seventh Street, and BANG you get hit by a city
bus and then you die. Maybe."

yeah...I like that.
I officially work at Wendy's. I think I'll post a song on
how I am feelign towards this fact:
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Slept So Long
Queen Of The Damned
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Walking
waiting
alone without a care
hoping and hating
with things i can't bare
did you think it's cool to walk right up to so save my life
and fuck it up
well did you
well did you
I see hell in your eyes
taken in by surprise
touching you makes me feel alive
touching you makes me die inside
walking
waiting
alone without a care
hoping and hating
with things that I can't bare
did you think it's cool to walk right up to so save my life
and fuck it up
well did you
i hate you
I see hell in your eyes
taken in by surprise
touching you makes me feel alive
touching you makes me die inside
I've slept so long without you
it's tearing me apart till
how to get this far playing games
with fist held cards
I've killed a million pity souls
But I can kill you
I've slept so long without you
I see hell in your eyes
taken in by surprise
touching you makes me feel alive
touching you makes me die inside
I see hell in your eyes
taken in by surprise
touching you makes me feel alive
touching you makes me die inside
I see hell in your eyes
taken in by surprise
touching you makes me feel alive
touching you makes me die inside
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Hmm...I think I'll be alright.
It's going to be akward starting out because I don't know
how to do anything..haha..
so..yeah...

One problem I have been having lately is that other
friends I have just cant understand that sometimes I want
to do different things, and that not all my friends want
to do the same thing.
Sometimes I hate that my life is so repetitive lately, but
other times it is comfortable and I dont want to interrupt
my nice cycle of events that I have going.
Lately I feel as though I am obligated to attend certain
functions that I really care less about, like birthday
parties, parties for no particular reason, Dessert
Cabaret.. people get all bitchy if I say I dont want to
go.. why cant I not feel like doing something.. or why
cant I just do what I feel like doin, no questions asked?
I really dont care what people think or say but i am so
sick of hearing people bitch me out or cop an attitude
with me because I went somewhere different or had previous
plans that would like to stick with..
I mean...I want to go to Aliceia's party, and now she's
thinking of not even having it...
dammit...the ONE thing I WANT to go to...
GRR...
okie..
another song...

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Seether
" Broken "

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away
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I don't even know if I a really making sense right
now...I'm just kinda woosy and sitting here typing shit
because I'm bored and I wish I could be alone with someone
right now....all alone...with the one person I have on my
mind...yeah...

What did I say yesterday?? I said it was SO beautiful
outside and that it would RAIN...now guess the fuck what??
IT"S RAINING!! AHHH
ARG...
grr...

owell...thats all for today...I will post again but it
will just be a few poems...
yeah..




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