Fellinlovewithbenji

You think you know, but you have no idea
2003-03-20 21:24:08 (UTC)

--...::...I Run Away...::....-

I already wrote like 2 freakin entrees today, but Im kinda
depressed and therefore, I decided that I would write
another one. I just found out a little while ago that this
girl Melissa's mother hung herself. God, that just makes me
so upset. I dont know what I would ever do if I were to
lose my mother. Especially if she tried to kill herself or
something along those lines. I donno. Her funeral is tonite
at 6, but Im not gonna go. That is just too much for me to
handle. After everything with Nathan, and then having to go
to this woman's funeral after crying all day already
because of being sad is just not gonna happen.

I keep listenin to this song by Britney Spears called "I
Run Away"..and it is just so upsetting. I keep thinking
about everything bad that has happened to me and it's
driving me insane. And then of course there's Michelle. Who
isn't making it any better. She's calling my fucking cell
phone crying and bitching and moaning about life. Mostly
Andrew and my mother. And how she wants to "thrust a knife
into herself." Or something like that. But Im sick of it.
She always puts all of her problems on my sholders. I can't
handle her doing that to me 24-7. How would you feel if
someone did that to you?

Yah so THAT Nathan Crying all day long Sad songs Girl's mom
commiting suicide=Mary being upset.

What the fuck is life anyway?---mkm




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