and at least ive got the sense to sense whats coming
and realise that good things never come to those who wait
because everything ive ever done ive done because i love
im afraid i'll spend the better part of next year
scared that i might need you
im in gainesville... its a nice town... im pretty sure i
cant do it.. i would love to, maybe if there werent SO
many things.. the money, the possibility of dad dying
soon, matt of course, being so far away from HOME.. i
dont know. i know i have to do it sometime. but. its
scary. i dont know im on and off... one minute im like
YES it would be GREAT i have to... then im like no fucking
way man. i cant do that.
the saddest thing is that i can tell he doesnt want me to
and i can tell he misses me already. but he'll never
fucking say so. and i think its so sad.
cus if he were to fall off the earth, im pretty sure i
COULD do it. there would still be shit in the way but i
could do it. and if he were to say, adrienne dont go. i
wouldnt fucking give it another thought. so thats the sad
anyway. im going to take a nap til alli gets back.