Tyler Durden

Blessed Life:
2003-03-19 14:57:06 (UTC)

Ani

Does it make me a bad person that I didn't identify with
her? She looked exactly like Corey. And that's how it was.
SHE looks like Corey, not vice versa. Am I a horrible boy
because I wanted to have sex so badly when it was over. For
the first time in weeks I wanted to have sex. She was
standing next to me. I couldn't, or maybe wouldn't, or
shouldn't hold her hand. No, liz is behind us somewhere in
this mass of unshaven armpits and dreadlocks. She might see
us. and die. I still don't want to hurt you lizzie, I still
crumple up into a little ball when you walk into the room.

This whole diary thing is like some spy network. I'm
transmitting to my minions but it's being intercepted by
the subject of the secret broadcast. I'll keep my heart at
idle for as long as you need, i just hope it doesn't stall.
Friday shouldn't be this hard for you, because it's only a
friend. she isn't the girl that you are. she isn't
beautiful like you. I won't talk to her like you, or care
about her like i care about you, i won't want her to come
kiss me goodnight. I lie, so what. I'm not a bad person. I
really am not bad at all. I have faults just like you and
we...still...love each other.

SPRING IS HERE. my room has been rearranged and my window
has been opened. I've broken out my faux Berkenstock
sandals and my no underwear outlook on life. my Buddhistic
tendencies are coming back to me.

you need to come tan yourself with me. the other day when
there were 8 breasts in that parking lot, we needed to tan
the worst. how about my place, tonight? say around 8
o'clock? You can get a burn from the moon, did you know
that? come find out if i'm lying again or perhaps I'm just
wrong. we could skip the tan and go straight to sleeping on
the lawn...




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