o-r-a-n-g-e

mY dilEmMa
2003-03-17 13:50:55 (UTC)

pain

evanescence- bring me to life

was reading jeffery deaver- the stone monkey ( a realli
nice book) when i had this huge gastric ache. and its not
like the normal gastric ache...it was soo pain that i
think i went unconscious..or maybe i fell aslp? bud nah it
was so freaking pain how can i possibly slp.? so yah had
to settle on the idea that the pain caused me to black
out. for like 20 mins before my mum shook me up. then the
pain started again..freaky..had never felt so much pain
bfor..mum reckon that its food poisoning...heck..i dun
wana go to the hospital to check.. anyway im much better
alraedy, after drinking this awful medicine my uncle
bought from thailand. yuck.. totally gross

anyway yah when i woke up guess who i think about again?
no prize for the correct ans...and if u dunch noe [ where
have u been???] its him again...emphasize on the ediot
AGAIN..man its really hard to 4get someone...bud its
easier now.. theres someone with me...i think i was
thinking about him when im unconscious/aslp...-shrugs-
wadeva..he dunch care about me already...why should i?
simple..coz i like him lotz...maybe humans shouldnt be
emotionally attached. as in u noe a r/s... to save
ourselves from getting hurt.
symtimes i keep thinking woah those pple who have been
through this are good [ my mum for e.g..she's been thru a
divorce] .. they are strong..my mum is someone i look up
to in the r/s department....
symtimes i would also think about those pple my age who
hasnt get into a r/s bfor... how i wish i didnt even start
my first r/s at this age..so that i can concentrate on my
studies. this is my last 1 1/2 years to mug...if i dun do
well....its a waste..so yah im confused..im sick too...
dang ..hafta go to the bio course tml =( sec3s and 4s...
wooh can c someone =PpP not that i realli care muich..bud
at least it'll take my mind off him
sheesh why cant i let go?
f*ck
sHeET
shouldnt be so pessimistic.....i shud live life to the
fullest man,.. yah right..




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