Zipsmokey10105
Kashmeah
friends
A late night conversation with my boyfriend...
Zipsmokey10105 [12:49 AM]: because I feel like... you're
not happy. like... when I'm with you.. you'd rather be
doing something else. Then i feel even worse when we just
don't end up doing anything. I feel like I'm wasting your
time. that there's someone else that could make you alot
happier. I feel boring and useless.
perLCD [12:50 AM]: sweety i get that same feeling, i
sometimes think you think that about me
Zipsmokey10105 [12:51 AM]: And I love you so much and I'd
probably kill myself if I lost you... but I feel like it's
inevitable and that you're going to find someone who you
can hang out with and still do stuff with your friends and
get stuff from all the time. I'm just not enough.
erLCD [12:53 AM]: i dont think you are boring and
useless. I love spending time with you. I dont want some
$10 whore like the girls my friends hang out with. believe
me that is not what i want. I want you. I love you. I
love only you.
perLCD [12:53 AM]: Did you hear me tonight when i wispered
in your ear? i said forever
Zipsmokey10105 [12:55 AM]: I just feel like i've hit a
dead end... i have nothing left to give you.
perLCD [12:56 AM]: your love is new every day, that is by
no means a dead end
iperLCD [12:57 AM]: give a man a fish youll feed him for a
day, give him a pole and teach him to fish, youll feed him
for life
erLCD [12:57 AM]: your teaching me how to fish
iperLCD [12:57 AM]: you are my pole
Zipsmokey10105 [12:58 AM]: I do nothing
iperLCD [12:58 AM]: yes you do!
Zipsmokey10105 [12:58 AM]: You need to go to bed
erLCD [12:58 AM]: we could go out and see your horse, go
bike riding, go o walks, go to the movies
perLCD [12:58 AM]: i will not go to bed
Zipsmokey10105 [12:59 AM]: You need to
iperLCD [12:59 AM]: no
Zipsmokey10105 [12:59 AM]: go, please
perLCD [12:59 AM]: why
Zipsmokey10105 [1:00 AM]: because you're not going to get
enough sleep and I don't want that to be because of me
iperLCD [1:00 AM]: i dont care if i dont get enough sleep,
i love you and i want to listen
Zipsmokey10105 [1:01 AM]: there's nothing left to listen
to
Zipsmokey10105 [1:01 AM]: I said it
iperLCD [1:01 AM]: you arnt nothing
iperLCD [1:02 AM]: you are a lifetime of fun, happieness,
activity, peace, and love
Zipsmokey10105 [1:02 AM]: there's never anything to do
perLCD [1:03 AM]: thats my fault
Zipsmokey10105 [1:03 AM]: I'm holding you back
Zipsmokey10105 [1:03 AM]: you could be having fun
elsewhere
erLCD [1:03 AM]: no your not
Zipsmokey10105 [1:03 AM]: yes itis
erLCD [1:03 AM]: no, i dont like those people
perLCD [1:04 AM]: they are sluts and they are turning my
friends into sluts
iperLCD [1:04 AM]: i like charlie less and less every day
because he has started acting like a "ladies man"
Zipsmokey10105 [1:04 AM]: sometimes you just look lonely
iperLCD [1:05 AM]: im not
perLCD [1:07 AM]: ive got people, i could do stuff with
them if i wanted
Zipsmokey10105 [1:08 AM]: well, i don't anymore. I guess
I'm just selfish and I really just feel bad for myself. I
just don't want to get in your way.
perLCD [1:09 AM]: you do too, you could start haging out
with everyone again if you wanted
Zipsmokey10105 [1:09 AM]: No i couldn't
iperLCD [1:10 AM]: why
Zipsmokey10105 [1:10 AM]: they all gave up on me
iperLCD[1:10 AM]: my friends have too, but i bet you could
go with them if you wanted
Zipsmokey10105 [1:11 AM]: I don't want you to lose your
friends
iperLCD [1:11 AM]: i dont want you to lose yours
Zipsmokey10105 [1:11 AM]: I already have
iperLCD [1:11 AM]: so have i
iperLCD [1:12 AM]: they are lost
Zipsmokey10105 [1:12 AM]: and for that, I feel terrible
iperLCD [1:12 AM]: it isnt your fault
iperLCD [1:12 AM]: it is all mine
iperLCD [1:12 AM]: i lost touch
iperLCD [1:12 AM]: i didnt return calls
iperLCD [1:12 AM]: i backed out of partys
Zipsmokey10105 [1:13 AM]: would you do me a favor and
start doing those things?
erLCD [1:13 AM]: i could have done all of that stuff but i
didnt. It was MY coice
erLCD [1:14 AM]: i do what i want to. Like i want to go
to the RX-7 thing tomorrow
perLCD [1:15 AM]: i dont want to go to the partys
perLCD [1:15 AM]: they dont understand
perLCD [1:16 AM]: they live by "bros over hos"...thats
what silva says and that is what they do. I cant agree
with that when i have someone i love so dearly. they call
me whipped, but they just dont know, they just dont know
Zipsmokey10105 [1:18 AM]: k
iperLCD [1:20 AM]: do you feel lonely?
Zipsmokey10105 [1:21 AM]: not when I'm with you
perLCD [1:21 AM]: when your not with me do you wish you
were doing something with friends
Zipsmokey10105 [1:23 AM]: usually i want to be doing
something with you.... but every now and then I wish I
could do something with friends. But I can't, cause there's
no one there.
iperLCD [1:23 AM]: we let it get to just you and me
Zipsmokey10105 [1:23 AM]: what
iperLCD [1:24 AM]: i have you, and you have me
Zipsmokey10105 [1:24 AM]: I'm just so afraid of what will
happen if I don't have you anymore
perLCD [1:25 AM]: that wont happen
Zipsmokey10105 [1:25 AM]: Kara said it herself... "he
won't always be there"
iperLCD [1:25 AM]: it's not going to happen
iperLCD [1:25 AM]: plain and simple
iperLCD [1:25 AM]: its going to be ok
Zipsmokey10105 [1:26 AM]: sometimes i just wish I had my
friends back
iperLCD [1:27 AM]: sometimes i do to
iperLCD [1:27 AM]: but i know what that would mean, and
the consequences are greater than the benefits
perLCD [1:27 AM]: at least for me
Zipsmokey10105 [1:27 AM]: what would that mean
perLCD [1:28 AM]: well i cant please my friends and be
with you, i tried, it didnt work, i would rather be with
you
Zipsmokey10105 [1:29 AM]: when did you try?
perLCD [1:30 AM]: appearing at partys and whatnot. it
worked for a while, but they changed their crowed. it
doesnt work anymore, and I am not worth it to them anymore,
they have other things
Zipsmokey10105 [1:30 AM]: that makes me feel so terrible
perLCD [1:31 AM]: why, it isnt your fault
Zipsmokey10105 [1:31 AM]: I need to go to bed
perLCD [1:31 AM]: it isnt your fault
Zipsmokey10105 [1:32 AM]: you really need to go to bed
perLCD [1:32 AM]: it is me, i knew what i was doing, i
knew
rLCD [1:32 AM]: i didnt care
erLCD [1:32 AM]: i love YOU
perLCD [1:32 AM]: not them
Zipsmokey10105 [1:33 AM]: i didn't know what I was
doing... and even though I lovey you more than anytyhing...
i still wish i had my friends to atleast... call.
iperLCD [1:34 AM]: i know
iperLCD [1:34 AM]: as much as i want to be, i cant be the
only person in your life
Zipsmokey10105 [1:36 AM]: see... that makes me feel bad.
perLCD [1:37 AM]: why?
Zipsmokey10105 [1:38 AM]: I dunno
Zipsmokey10105 [1:39 AM]: You have to get up in 5 hours...
go to bed.
perLCD [1:39 AM]: no
Zipsmokey10105 [1:39 AM]: I'm going to bed too
perLCD [1:39 AM]: ok
perLCD [1:40 AM]: i still want to talk
Zipsmokey10105 [1:40 AM]: I can't anymore
iperLCD [1:41 AM]: k
iperLCD [1:41 AM]: dont feel bad for me
iperLCD [1:42 AM]: I am ok
iperLCD [1:42 AM]: i feel bad for myself
iperLCD [1:42 AM]: not because of my situation
iperLCD [1:42 AM]: but because of yours
Zipsmokey10105 [1:42 AM]: why
iperLCD [1:43 AM]: because i am the reason
Zipsmokey10105 [1:43 AM]: no
perLCD [1:43 AM]: partly
perLCD [1:44 AM]: wholey if you look at it a certain way
Zipsmokey10105 [1:45 AM]: you're not guilty of any of this
Zipsmokey10105 [1:46 AM]: good night, chris. Go to sleep.
iperLCD [1:47 AM]: I love you
Zipsmokey10105 [1:47 AM]: I love you
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