Zipsmokey10105

Kashmeah
2003-03-16 07:45:34 (UTC)

friends

A late night conversation with my boyfriend...

Zipsmokey10105 [12:49 AM]: because I feel like... you're
not happy. like... when I'm with you.. you'd rather be
doing something else. Then i feel even worse when we just
don't end up doing anything. I feel like I'm wasting your
time. that there's someone else that could make you alot
happier. I feel boring and useless.

perLCD [12:50 AM]: sweety i get that same feeling, i
sometimes think you think that about me

Zipsmokey10105 [12:51 AM]: And I love you so much and I'd
probably kill myself if I lost you... but I feel like it's
inevitable and that you're going to find someone who you
can hang out with and still do stuff with your friends and
get stuff from all the time. I'm just not enough.

erLCD [12:53 AM]: i dont think you are boring and
useless. I love spending time with you. I dont want some
$10 whore like the girls my friends hang out with. believe
me that is not what i want. I want you. I love you. I
love only you.

perLCD [12:53 AM]: Did you hear me tonight when i wispered
in your ear? i said forever

Zipsmokey10105 [12:55 AM]: I just feel like i've hit a
dead end... i have nothing left to give you.

perLCD [12:56 AM]: your love is new every day, that is by
no means a dead end

iperLCD [12:57 AM]: give a man a fish youll feed him for a
day, give him a pole and teach him to fish, youll feed him
for life

erLCD [12:57 AM]: your teaching me how to fish

iperLCD [12:57 AM]: you are my pole

Zipsmokey10105 [12:58 AM]: I do nothing

iperLCD [12:58 AM]: yes you do!

Zipsmokey10105 [12:58 AM]: You need to go to bed

erLCD [12:58 AM]: we could go out and see your horse, go
bike riding, go o walks, go to the movies

perLCD [12:58 AM]: i will not go to bed

Zipsmokey10105 [12:59 AM]: You need to

iperLCD [12:59 AM]: no

Zipsmokey10105 [12:59 AM]: go, please

perLCD [12:59 AM]: why

Zipsmokey10105 [1:00 AM]: because you're not going to get
enough sleep and I don't want that to be because of me

iperLCD [1:00 AM]: i dont care if i dont get enough sleep,
i love you and i want to listen

Zipsmokey10105 [1:01 AM]: there's nothing left to listen
to

Zipsmokey10105 [1:01 AM]: I said it

iperLCD [1:01 AM]: you arnt nothing

iperLCD [1:02 AM]: you are a lifetime of fun, happieness,
activity, peace, and love

Zipsmokey10105 [1:02 AM]: there's never anything to do

perLCD [1:03 AM]: thats my fault

Zipsmokey10105 [1:03 AM]: I'm holding you back

Zipsmokey10105 [1:03 AM]: you could be having fun
elsewhere

erLCD [1:03 AM]: no your not

Zipsmokey10105 [1:03 AM]: yes itis

erLCD [1:03 AM]: no, i dont like those people

perLCD [1:04 AM]: they are sluts and they are turning my
friends into sluts

iperLCD [1:04 AM]: i like charlie less and less every day
because he has started acting like a "ladies man"

Zipsmokey10105 [1:04 AM]: sometimes you just look lonely

iperLCD [1:05 AM]: im not

perLCD [1:07 AM]: ive got people, i could do stuff with
them if i wanted

Zipsmokey10105 [1:08 AM]: well, i don't anymore. I guess
I'm just selfish and I really just feel bad for myself. I
just don't want to get in your way.

perLCD [1:09 AM]: you do too, you could start haging out
with everyone again if you wanted
Zipsmokey10105 [1:09 AM]: No i couldn't

iperLCD [1:10 AM]: why

Zipsmokey10105 [1:10 AM]: they all gave up on me

iperLCD[1:10 AM]: my friends have too, but i bet you could
go with them if you wanted

Zipsmokey10105 [1:11 AM]: I don't want you to lose your
friends

iperLCD [1:11 AM]: i dont want you to lose yours

Zipsmokey10105 [1:11 AM]: I already have

iperLCD [1:11 AM]: so have i

iperLCD [1:12 AM]: they are lost

Zipsmokey10105 [1:12 AM]: and for that, I feel terrible

iperLCD [1:12 AM]: it isnt your fault

iperLCD [1:12 AM]: it is all mine

iperLCD [1:12 AM]: i lost touch

iperLCD [1:12 AM]: i didnt return calls

iperLCD [1:12 AM]: i backed out of partys

Zipsmokey10105 [1:13 AM]: would you do me a favor and
start doing those things?

erLCD [1:13 AM]: i could have done all of that stuff but i
didnt. It was MY coice

erLCD [1:14 AM]: i do what i want to. Like i want to go
to the RX-7 thing tomorrow

perLCD [1:15 AM]: i dont want to go to the partys

perLCD [1:15 AM]: they dont understand

perLCD [1:16 AM]: they live by "bros over hos"...thats
what silva says and that is what they do. I cant agree
with that when i have someone i love so dearly. they call
me whipped, but they just dont know, they just dont know

Zipsmokey10105 [1:18 AM]: k

iperLCD [1:20 AM]: do you feel lonely?

Zipsmokey10105 [1:21 AM]: not when I'm with you

perLCD [1:21 AM]: when your not with me do you wish you
were doing something with friends

Zipsmokey10105 [1:23 AM]: usually i want to be doing
something with you.... but every now and then I wish I
could do something with friends. But I can't, cause there's
no one there.

iperLCD [1:23 AM]: we let it get to just you and me

Zipsmokey10105 [1:23 AM]: what

iperLCD [1:24 AM]: i have you, and you have me

Zipsmokey10105 [1:24 AM]: I'm just so afraid of what will
happen if I don't have you anymore

perLCD [1:25 AM]: that wont happen

Zipsmokey10105 [1:25 AM]: Kara said it herself... "he
won't always be there"

iperLCD [1:25 AM]: it's not going to happen

iperLCD [1:25 AM]: plain and simple

iperLCD [1:25 AM]: its going to be ok

Zipsmokey10105 [1:26 AM]: sometimes i just wish I had my
friends back

iperLCD [1:27 AM]: sometimes i do to

iperLCD [1:27 AM]: but i know what that would mean, and
the consequences are greater than the benefits

perLCD [1:27 AM]: at least for me

Zipsmokey10105 [1:27 AM]: what would that mean

perLCD [1:28 AM]: well i cant please my friends and be
with you, i tried, it didnt work, i would rather be with
you

Zipsmokey10105 [1:29 AM]: when did you try?

perLCD [1:30 AM]: appearing at partys and whatnot. it
worked for a while, but they changed their crowed. it
doesnt work anymore, and I am not worth it to them anymore,
they have other things

Zipsmokey10105 [1:30 AM]: that makes me feel so terrible

perLCD [1:31 AM]: why, it isnt your fault

Zipsmokey10105 [1:31 AM]: I need to go to bed

perLCD [1:31 AM]: it isnt your fault

Zipsmokey10105 [1:32 AM]: you really need to go to bed

perLCD [1:32 AM]: it is me, i knew what i was doing, i
knew

rLCD [1:32 AM]: i didnt care

erLCD [1:32 AM]: i love YOU

perLCD [1:32 AM]: not them

Zipsmokey10105 [1:33 AM]: i didn't know what I was
doing... and even though I lovey you more than anytyhing...
i still wish i had my friends to atleast... call.

iperLCD [1:34 AM]: i know

iperLCD [1:34 AM]: as much as i want to be, i cant be the
only person in your life

Zipsmokey10105 [1:36 AM]: see... that makes me feel bad.

perLCD [1:37 AM]: why?

Zipsmokey10105 [1:38 AM]: I dunno

Zipsmokey10105 [1:39 AM]: You have to get up in 5 hours...
go to bed.

perLCD [1:39 AM]: no

Zipsmokey10105 [1:39 AM]: I'm going to bed too

perLCD [1:39 AM]: ok

perLCD [1:40 AM]: i still want to talk

Zipsmokey10105 [1:40 AM]: I can't anymore

iperLCD [1:41 AM]: k

iperLCD [1:41 AM]: dont feel bad for me

iperLCD [1:42 AM]: I am ok

iperLCD [1:42 AM]: i feel bad for myself

iperLCD [1:42 AM]: not because of my situation

iperLCD [1:42 AM]: but because of yours

Zipsmokey10105 [1:42 AM]: why

iperLCD [1:43 AM]: because i am the reason

Zipsmokey10105 [1:43 AM]: no

perLCD [1:43 AM]: partly

perLCD [1:44 AM]: wholey if you look at it a certain way

Zipsmokey10105 [1:45 AM]: you're not guilty of any of this

Zipsmokey10105 [1:46 AM]: good night, chris. Go to sleep.

iperLCD [1:47 AM]: I love you

Zipsmokey10105 [1:47 AM]: I love you




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