DepressedinNY

Katharynne
2003-03-14 22:14:21 (UTC)

Invisable girl in a dark world

ever have one of those days where you feel like nobody
cares about you? well i was like that this morning- i
couldnt get up or stop crying. it was awful. so, seeking
some comfort i logged on to one of my favorite pro-ana
sites, where i talked to some girls in a chat room. they
were so nice and understanding! this isnt the first time
this has happened to me. once i was actually online
sending "good bye" emails to people and i went into the
chat room and told everyone i was "leaving", and they were
actually able to talk me out of it. so i was happier after
talking to my online friends today, but then one of my
friends called me about an hour ago and we got into a huge
fight. i was supposed to bring some blue hair dye to school
for her today so she could dye her hair for a party
tonight, but i had to stay home sick so i couldnt get it to
her. i think shes really PMS-y because she was overly mad
and very non-understanding-ish and blah. so ugh, i relapsed
back into my cutting habits. i hate it when i let my
friends down. i had to punish myself. i wrote her initials
(ST) on my wrist. the "S" looks really pretty, i made it
curly, but the "T" looks sloppier. i bet im grossing you
out right now, arent i? okay, ill go now. ciao.




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