hopes&dreams

hopes,dreams,&fears
2003-03-14 18:20:34 (UTC)

LOVE??

So, I am not going to touch upon my spring break too
much...I am going to disregard my last entry, but I am not
going to erase it. Those were my thoughts at the time and
I am going to leave it at that. I will say that the time
spent with tray and my family was wonderful. And I
wouldn't change a thing. I bought a new TV the other day,
the old one that was broken is too expensive to fix. My
roommate Michelle is still really only focusing on
herself, but I am proud to report that I have been a bit
more vocal. Like when she goes off on tangents spouting
out things as though they were fact, when in all reality,
she is wrong!! HA..HA! I am there to disprove her!

Now, what I do want to write about is Lynn. I don’t
remember if I wrote this earlier, but she has fallen for a
married woman. We'll call this woman Amber. Well, amber is
what you would call now separated. And at this point she
feels that she needs to distance herself from Lynn, at
least till the divorce is final, she has a full time job,
and her own place to live.

But what scares me, or makes me pain, is that I hear it in
both of them; they are already invested into a
relationship. They both have STRONG feels towards one
another. I easily get so caught up in unfairness of them
not being aloud to just jump right in. Kiss, make love,
and be there for one another. I don’t get it.... and I
guess I don’t really know what I am trying to say either.


Do you want me to tell you something really subversive?
Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why
people are so cynical about it. It really is worth
fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And
the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even
more.
--Erica Jong




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