iversonowich

this is my life...
2003-03-14 18:06:50 (UTC)

ain't life wonderful...

listening to: everclear-wonderufl
mood: fricking depresed feel like shit :'(
eating: lipton chicken noodle soup :)
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i wish that everyone had a moment in this world where they
could have whatever the hell they wanted. i really need
one of those moments. i can't stand sitting in math class
and seeing michael walk by and sit right beside me and not
say anything. it kills not to talk to him. he was at my
friends house last night and they were all going to talk
to him and see how he felt. i hope that he makes the right
decision. i love him. i really really do. and i haven't
stopped loving him for almost 2 years now... he acts liek
nothing happend, that he doesnt' regret anything. i wish
he missed me the way i miss him. he just got his license
so last night we talked about taking a road trip this
summer up to my friends granpas cabin and stay out there
for a coupla nights. we had planned this road trip when we
were still going out. i dont think i will go, it would be
to weird. i dont think i am ready to face him alone like
that. it wouldn't be any fun, id just sit there and be all
deperessed and then they'd just all get mad at me. i miss
him so much. i would do anything to change things back to
the way they were. i don't know what to do anymore. i cry
myself to sleep. i just wish he knew. so lets rephrase
that title. aint life shitty :'(..


i feel like im talking to no one here. i hope someone
actually reads these things :(..

Death God..


man-you are somethin. im so glad i came across your diary.
your entries are helping me. well i hope they do. i wish
things between me and michael could be teh way they are
between u and dana.. your awesome man..


well that's all i got peoples..my lifes a piece of shit
right now, and i feel like crying. so maybe ill just go do
that. peace..

tary baby. :'(




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