Paranoid

GrassAttack
2003-03-12 07:15:30 (UTC)

2003-03-02 21:53:25 (GMT) more..

2003-03-02 21:53:25 (GMT)

more now

ok. so the things i left out. he told me he loves my
smile. he likes looking into my eyes. he says their almost
yellow, i think he means that as a good thing, but
still.... i asked him if i could tell him something. he
says what? do i have your permission? yeah...

i love you.

so we kiss. i know hes not ready to tell me the same yet.
but its ok, i can see it in his eyes.

when i leave i give him a quick kiss and tell him again,
dont forget! he responds autimatically. i smile at him, i
dont think he noticed what he said. its ok... im laughing
inside though.i already made him say it and he didnt even
notice it. hahaha.

i dont know how to express the amount of feelings i have
for him without showing him. without showing anybody. its
too hard to expain to my bestfriend, she thinks im a slut.

well, if i love him its not slutty to do the things weve
done. i wish shed get a boyfriend she really cares for so
she can see what i mean. but alls shes thinking about is
getting pot. granted, that was pretty much all i was
thinking about before all of this, but still. i wish she
could at least admit that i am in love.

am i slut? she asked me if i would sleep with him. i told
her the truth.yeah, i probably will. she asked me if i
would sleep with him if he asked me to save our re-
lationship.

well, i told her yes. but afterwords. ive thought about it.
my answer is still yes. if i thought it would help. but
things are fine now, and i know that wouldnt have helped
with the kind of problems we were having.

aaaagggghhhh. it is toime to write that stupid fucking cim
paper. i will kill you. stupid cims...DAMN YOU TO HELL...
hehehe







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