stupidhead

read this and die...
2003-03-12 03:00:06 (UTC)

and here i come...in second place...again

i had a whole long story on here about the whole amanda thing but i
realized i was being a whiny bitch so i deleted it. fuck off.


i've always just been second, second place, second best.
always. i should get used to it, that i'm nothing more
than a game to people or a back up plan. i need to stay in
my room more. thatd solve stuff. you always come in first
when youre not around anyone. no one there to beat you...
i'm just tired of everything and everyone.
i shouldnt care...but i do...i wish i couldnt feel
i guess somehow i blew it again. of course.
i need to go back to doing what i do best...staying to
myself, locking myself away up in my room with my guitar..and keeping
everything inside like i've done for the past like 9 years...
cuz this whole "caring/trying" thing i've been trying out
lately....isn't fucking working.




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