ForeverLate

ForeverLate
2003-03-11 00:00:02 (UTC)

Another Wasted Day

Definitaly another wasted day. Seems like the more I think
I understand the less happy I am, and I don't want to be
like that. Every morning, I go to school, with a huge
smile on my face, and if I don't see everyone smiling, I
try my hardest to make them happy..even if it means
sacraficing my own happiness. And no one really realizes
that..that's the way I feel. Because I don't want them to
feel sorry for me, because then they'd be upset and the
cycle would just repeat it's self. I don't mind makin'
people happy, I actually love to do that, but I'm so sick
of makin' people happy that I know wouldn't try to make me
happy if I ever let my gaurd down and showed that I was
upset. And it seems like everyone has been doing things to
make me mad or upset or something that's just not happy. I
mean not everyone, but a great deal of people. And of
course if they ask, I'm not gonna say yea you're makin' me
really mad, because I don't want to have any conficts with
anyone. I've had enough of those. So looks like I'm just
lookin' forward to little events here and there, trying to
pass the time, and not think about what's really going on
around me.




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