Jake

Welcome to my mind.
2003-03-08 01:35:08 (UTC)

March 7, 2003

I still have confusion in my mind about where to lead my
life and all. All I really know is that I would be perfectly
happy finishing highschool, going to college, getting
married and getting a good job doing what I love. If it
works out that way I was lucky for once in my life.

So now I am sitting here at my computer entering a state of
deep seated loathing and bitching about how the world sucks
and hates me. Screw it. I am starting to say it enough so it
must be true.

School sucked today. First period we had band. I screwed up
and proved I am steadily growing worse at the only thing I
am good at. Second period we had two tests on the Civil War,
which I couldn't have gotten anything anything higher than a
score in the high 80's. Thats if I get everything else
correct. Lunch, hell as ussual. 4-5 period was English. I
got a 85% on a project I did all the work I was supposed to
on. Just shot me in the head while at it and just finish me
off. I am no longer good at anything. 6th period was
Geometry. Patronizing and arogant bullshit spewed out by
Hoffman yet again. Only showing us how stupid we really are,
I already know. 7th period was my only consolation was 7th
period. We helped set up the faculty retreat in the friary.

Why have I no talents? I have nothing that stands out and I
have nothing I am good at. I have to work twice or three
times harder than anyone else to pull something off. And I
am lucky if it even turns out correctly at the end. So screw
it, handed shit thats what I am stuck with.




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