ProblemChild

Is this even considered a life?
2003-03-07 01:03:06 (UTC)

Continued... this is my Mind now...

I am so sick of being "fat" or just i dont no i am so
tempted to go and make my self throw up but i no it wouldnt
work and its not right...i dont no if i should call some1 to
get my mind of it go and do it cuz at least that little bit
will b gone....I HATE MYSELF NO1 I EVERY LKE LIKES ME OR
ENTHING I AM GOING TO BE ALONE FOREVER...I NO DEEP DOWN
INSIDE ONE DAY ILLF IND SOME1 ONE DAY ILL HAVE KIDS AND
THEYLL LOVE ME AND LIFE WONT B SO BAD ...BUT I DONT CARE
CARE IF ONE DAY ILL HAVE SOMEONE THATS GONNA B A LONG TIME
FROM NOW AND I NEED SOME1 NOW I NEED LOVE AND NOT JUST THE
KIND FROM MY FAMILY(and there isnt a lot there) OR FROM MY
"FRIENDS" (i dont even no if ne1 even lieks me nemre:() I
HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!! errrrrrr i am thnking and telling my
self no and i relaly shouldnt do that this is my diary and
if u wanna make a commment on something i say(mainly if u no
me) dont say it directly to me and say somehting thats
actually gonna mean something) so hear i am going to let my
heart do the talking I LIke michael soo much still an di
dont no whats wrong with me everytime i think about how much
i like him i wnana cry cuz he drives me crazy I DONT EVEN
TALK TO HIM i no its not kool/"wierd" that i like him so
much and dont no him but I CANT HELP IT and talk about me
all u wnat but hey its not helping me feel nebetetr inside
and he looks at me i swear!!!!! I WISH GUYS JUST UNDERTSOOD
ME!!!! I WISH I WANST ME I SWEAR I HAVE SOMEHTING WRONG WITH
MY MIND OR SOMETHING...IM JUST A FREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhh
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